I've lost my interest in being one with the Spirit. Maybe because I was in touch with it for such an extended period. But, why am I no longer interested in living through my Spirit? I keep making reference to the experiences of the time when I was one with the Spirit, and no spark or interest comes from them. A friend told me they are simply experiences now, and to stop making reference to them as they won't serve me and are merely concepts.
What could cause me to be disinterested in carrying on as I did? Is it because I think of the "Spirit" to be other than what I am now? But it is! Althought I know it isn't, it is... because the spirit is being supressed. I am not in touch with my true nature... and the confusing thing is that I don't really have any motivation to do so again. Although if I was in touch with it, I'm sure I'd be content. Sorry for being so confusing. I'm just looking for insight from those who have much more clarity than I do now. And, I know I may have this question framed and described all wrong, that's just another by product of my lack of clarity. Thanks!
Okay, so its the illusion that is telling me I do not want to feel as one. Why does the illusion exist? Why am I grasping onto an illusion that is the contrary of what I uncovered and desired to believe?
What could cause me to be disinterested in carrying on as I did? Is it because I think of the "Spirit" to be other than what I am now? But it is! Althought I know it isn't, it is... because the spirit is being supressed. I am not in touch with my true nature... and the confusing thing is that I don't really have any motivation to do so again. Although if I was in touch with it, I'm sure I'd be content. Sorry for being so confusing. I'm just looking for insight from those who have much more clarity than I do now. And, I know I may have this question framed and described all wrong, that's just another by product of my lack of clarity. Thanks!
Okay, so its the illusion that is telling me I do not want to feel as one. Why does the illusion exist? Why am I grasping onto an illusion that is the contrary of what I uncovered and desired to believe?