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karinasteenari
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Hi Guys,
In a couple of weeks I have to have surgery to get a Lymph node removed. I am not scared of the surgery its self or what they could find (I have had every test imaginable - Cat scan, gene studies, tumor markers - you name it) as to being put under general Anesthesia. It probably sound really silly but I am very scared that I am not going to wake up. They said that the surgery will only take about half an hour, and that it will be over before i know it - but that's the thing - I won't know lol. I will be asleep. I'm 23 by the way. After my dad had open heart surgery in Noveraber last year and did not wake up for 8 days I thought that I would be able to get through anything that crosses my path no worries lol. But now that the date is edging nearer and nearer I am getting more panicked by the day.
My other fear is that I will be very nervous just before they put the anesthesia in and that my heart will be beating too fast and the doctor will say that they cannot do it because my heart is beating to rapidly. (It easily gets up to the 120 beats per minutes to 150 beats per minutes when I am having an anxiety attack) My dad keeps telling me that these are silly fears and to grow up (the nerve, lol) but to me they are very real.
In a couple of weeks I have to have surgery to get a Lymph node removed. I am not scared of the surgery its self or what they could find (I have had every test imaginable - Cat scan, gene studies, tumor markers - you name it) as to being put under general Anesthesia. It probably sound really silly but I am very scared that I am not going to wake up. They said that the surgery will only take about half an hour, and that it will be over before i know it - but that's the thing - I won't know lol. I will be asleep. I'm 23 by the way. After my dad had open heart surgery in Noveraber last year and did not wake up for 8 days I thought that I would be able to get through anything that crosses my path no worries lol. But now that the date is edging nearer and nearer I am getting more panicked by the day.
My other fear is that I will be very nervous just before they put the anesthesia in and that my heart will be beating too fast and the doctor will say that they cannot do it because my heart is beating to rapidly. (It easily gets up to the 120 beats per minutes to 150 beats per minutes when I am having an anxiety attack) My dad keeps telling me that these are silly fears and to grow up (the nerve, lol) but to me they are very real.