You have the "Middle Man Syndrome". You have enough to live one, can afford a computer, even an internetconnection. Yet you feel you are unworthy, you adore your selfpitty. It is unfair some people are born in places with money, fancy cars, nice girls and all the fucking coke your nose can handle. Guess what, some people can't afford a computer, don't have a roof over their head...hell, a handfull of rice everyday is a dream for them. Why don't you make them your purpose of live. Go build some homes, help give them a better standard of live. They need that, you probably already have it.