Today is day 10... I had a hard night with those damn restless leggs again. I didnt sleep a frickin wink. Damn that just sucked! Hot flashes and sweats.. The melentone didnt do a damn thing e for me either.. My poor dogs just hate me this morning! I was up and down up and down all night. In and out of the hot tub like a crazy women. But I survived another night. Even tho I feel worse today again, ..
(It just seems like I can only have one half way good day at a time)
I have not missed one day of work through any of this... But Im lucky since I own my own buisness, I can go in and just sit, so that is good for me anyway. I don't know If I could work if I really had to...
Yesterday I felt good enough to go to town for a few hours.... Maybe by 9 am or so I'll feel better..... Its just my leggs feel like a ton of bricks and its hard to even lift them up. *ug*
My ex wants to come back, so maybe that was a reason I couldn't calm down last night too.... I don't know....... Long story short, he has never even touched a frinkin beer alone taken a pain pill for no damn reason!
He was so blind to my addiction, never once did he ever say anything about my pills in my purse.... He just figured I got them from my doctor, so I must need them... He knew what hell I went through with my knee surgery. OMG I will never ever have another ACL surgery. Cut my damn legg off pleaseeeeeeeeeeee!!!!
Yes, I only went to 1 doctor, he was so good about handing out those damn vicodines, just like candy. He never once said, hey , you think you may be addicted to these? Nope he never did, he just kept refilling my RX every 2 weeks..... That lasted for 2 1/2 years.... I think I would still be on them if I had not of moved back to my home state. But once I got away from this doctor, my eyes opened up, and thats when I relized I had a problem with the,,,,,, Then I met my SUB DOC. Lets say I jumped out of one frying pan just to land into another frying pan..... F*&)king doctors!
Im just rarableing this morning I guess.
I keep praying for one good night of sleep! and when it comes I will be so happy.. Then I will know that I had to go through of all of this shit, to get where I''m at today!
Don't get me wrong, it's hell, but Im happy right now to be going through this hell without Vicodine or Subs!