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magsieboy
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Hello, my name is Carl and im form England. I spent 11 years in the army then left to pursue my medical career.In 2004 i had a complete breakdown with a serious suicide attempt. I have no family so i was left on the streets,at this time i was also diagnosed with a muscular disease which will eventually put me in a wheel chair. I was on very heavy pain meRAB and pyschiatric meRAB(seroquel 750mg etc) My life was black so i had nothing to lose so i began taking Heroin, it was a conscious decesion on my part as i could go no longer. So for 4 years i was on 150ml methadone. this helped me become more self confident and social. I met my wife to be and she accepted my problems(PTSD from too much War etc) Then we moved to Finland,immediately my dose was cut to 75mg and its taken me 2 years to make the transistion from meth to Suboxone. Im now on 8mg a day for Treatment Resistent Depression. I must say that it does stable my mood and the transistion was very easy, as i had got my meth down to 28mg. I never knew how much meth messes you up until i got off it. the problem i now have is that although my mood is more stable my anxiety is getting worse. Over here in Finland the abuse of Prescriptrion meRAB is at epidemic levels which makes asking for them for a clinically diagnosed illness almost Taboo. Ive been on Diazepam 30mg since 2004. Now im off the meth my anxiety has got really bad but they wont listen let alone prescribe me a new benzo regime.
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