What you say is very true, and I can agree, I should be more greatful that I know her, but today we drove her, and her sister home after swim pratice, and I saw the "for sale" sign on her house, it kind of threw me back into the reality of the situation.:sad: I try my very hardest to not think about it, but I can actually feel it eating at me, I can feel it dragging my soul down, like a dead weight. The worst part is, i'm not speaking metaphoricly.