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Felicitas
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This my first time posting on this board. I have been trying to find a job that wont get me in a rut and cause me to dive into a deep depression. I'm diagnosed with Bipolar II and Generalized Anxiety. I have spent these past couple months unemployed and mostly isolated in my apartment alone. I didn't want to go back to a job that just has me at a computer doing database management. I graduated from college 3 1/2 years ago and have not held a job for any longer than 8 months. This new job, that I start Thursday, is a cocktail waitress at a casino. When I got this job a month ago I was so excited! The tips would be great and I wouldn't feel stuck at a desk. I plan on going to Music Recording school as soon as I save up enough money and this job seems to be the only one I can find that will give me the money I need.
What I'm afraid of is having a panic attack and fainting. A casino is a LOUD crowded place and its gonna be busy. I know I can do it. There is no doubt in my mind. I'm just having trouble going from being basically shut in my apartment to being in a casino most of the night. Large contrast. I am on Prozac, Lamictal and Ativan.
I guess what I'm asking is does anyone else have a story about them starting a new job after being in a depressive isolated state for a while?
What I'm afraid of is having a panic attack and fainting. A casino is a LOUD crowded place and its gonna be busy. I know I can do it. There is no doubt in my mind. I'm just having trouble going from being basically shut in my apartment to being in a casino most of the night. Large contrast. I am on Prozac, Lamictal and Ativan.
I guess what I'm asking is does anyone else have a story about them starting a new job after being in a depressive isolated state for a while?