Dimitry Lukovich
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Theres this girl that i go to school with and ive had a thing for her since the start of grade 9, were in grade 12 now. For the beggining of grade 9 i didnt have enough balls to even say hi to her, then i started getting high and drunk in grade 10 and this prompted me to text her one night, and we started talking from there. I was still nervous around her, but gradually through talking my confidence built up and it wasnt that hard. The summer of grade 10 came around and i became addicted to ecstasy, and this screwed everything up, badly. we didnt talk for quite a while, a couple months. I eventually kicked my addiction, and i was now about almost half way through the grade 11 year, but dude to me feeling awkward about becoming an addict and placing the drug over her, i told myself she never wanted to even see me again and so i retreated from trying to open communication... Finished grade 11, and now i started drinking once again since my anxiety disorder from kicking my addiction was gone, so i was drunk every day more or less. This lead me to saying screw being scared to talk to her, because i wanted to talk to her deep down for the longest time, so i went for it. I thought it would go horribly, but it went great. we continued to talk for the summer, and then grade 12 started and ohhhh god i stopped talking to her again, now for the record, shes not one of those girls i can only talk to when im drunk, i can handle my poisons very well and they merely give me the confidence, not the flare in the conversation department. anywho, for some odd damn reason, i seem to have lost all my self confidence this year for some reason and i feel as if im back at square one with her... she told me last summer that she thought i was a cool guy and i was real funny and all that stuff, but that she was too busy to hang out, get involved with stuff whatever, which isnt some lie like it usually is, shes in like every sportsteam, chearleader, working for every scholarship in the books and all that stuff. BAD PART. I have real strong feelings for her, and shes moving out of the country after grad! Im on my last attempt here and i dont have the confidence to do it for some reason anymore....... so should i even try? or just try to forget about her when she moves away for ever,..