So-o-o-o close to giving in ...

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tomatoface

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This afternoon I almost did it - I had myself convinced that it didn't matter if I took just one more today - that it would only be a little slip -- that I deserved it after all the work I'd been doing, blah, blah.... But I kept thinking that it's the opiate demons talking. They were doing a good job!! I really, really wanted to take one!! But I didn't want to let myself down, either. I wanted to stick to my plan and not increase once i'd made a cut. So, it's a small victory, since I'm still in the beginning stages, but a victory nevertheless. Thanks to everyone for their advice and encouragement - that's what made the difference!

As far as my taper is concerned, I'm still sticking to the motto, "Slow and steady wins the race." I am now at 80mg (down from 120-140mg) - I'll be at 70 in a few days. So I have a long, long way to go, but I'm on schedule for where I planned to be at this point. I'm not having any trouble rationing them, but I will give them to my husband ifwhen I get to that point.

Bye, all! Best wishes to everyone!
tomatoface
 
Alright!! I'm glad to hear that my worRAB stuck. Those little demons will try all sorts of things to get you to stop your taper and give up your detox. You have the right motivation and motto. Keep it up and you really are doing great!!
 
CONGRATS!!!!!!

I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!! :bouncing::round::bouncing::round::bouncing::round:

What you did takes A LOT OF STRENGTH!!!! Those demons seriously can spin a great story in your head as to why you should take another... but you won this one and I am so proud of you.

Keep it up honey and it sounRAB like you are really do this the right way! Keep it up!!!
Hugs!
 
Tomatoface-
Congratulations! And, please, don't downplay this victory. It's not a small victory at all. It's a huge victory for you. During my husband's recoveries from two separate substances, I considered each and every milestone or victory a HUGE one because when you are recovering, it's so easy to "slip" you know? Any time you have the strength, determination and bravery to say "no" and NOT give in is a big deal.

You deserve to be proud of this, so don't downplay it, ok? Pat yourself on the back and know you made the right choice. When you reach the end of this journey, you will feel so wonderful! You deserve it.
 
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