hello all,
registered to spit out somethin which i haven't been able to say to anyone since years and i think thats what this community is all about.
Well its been almost 4 years since i've been sick, constant headache, backpain, broken finger, legs hurting all teh time, mean some or the other shit keeping me from doing what i want to all teh freakin time.
I couldn't(still can't) freaking stand properly for 5 minutes cause the back hurts but the best part is no one understands it, not the friends, not the family no one else. parents kept telling me to go to school when i can't even get up from the bed.(i'm from india and here according to parents going to school is something like you should rather die than missing out your studies)
even i understand that, i'm (or was) a good student but i can't do it cause i'm sick and no one would understand it, all they(parents) say is your sick cause you use yer puter a lot, pack the puter and throw it somewhere means bullshit. They weren't even ready to take me to doctor so see whats the freakin problem but later they did, still no cures, now they say its cause of some freakin exorcism and shit like that.
Even the friends whom i trust the most won't understand, turned their back on me, well now they look good from the outside but i can see whats coming from the inside.
I've been a loner most of my life, which include school and other things and i from the very childhood i kept telling myself i don't need anyone and it held true for me, i don't need anyone but still sometimes it hurts, even that the bunch of people you trust aint with you, though i was with them whenever they needed me, i even ditched people who trusted me for those friends of mine thinking they need me more but nah its all shit.
As the name of this section of the forum suggests "life sucks" and it really does, i had plans to die too but not anymore, now i think lets face the shit, inside i'm broke but i try to look ok to everyone outside, well thats bout it, sorry fer my bad english and i don't think anyone got solutions for what i've been going through still if any great soul has some input on it, i would appreciate that.
take care all,
(life is just) Blackened.
registered to spit out somethin which i haven't been able to say to anyone since years and i think thats what this community is all about.
Well its been almost 4 years since i've been sick, constant headache, backpain, broken finger, legs hurting all teh time, mean some or the other shit keeping me from doing what i want to all teh freakin time.
I couldn't(still can't) freaking stand properly for 5 minutes cause the back hurts but the best part is no one understands it, not the friends, not the family no one else. parents kept telling me to go to school when i can't even get up from the bed.(i'm from india and here according to parents going to school is something like you should rather die than missing out your studies)
even i understand that, i'm (or was) a good student but i can't do it cause i'm sick and no one would understand it, all they(parents) say is your sick cause you use yer puter a lot, pack the puter and throw it somewhere means bullshit. They weren't even ready to take me to doctor so see whats the freakin problem but later they did, still no cures, now they say its cause of some freakin exorcism and shit like that.
Even the friends whom i trust the most won't understand, turned their back on me, well now they look good from the outside but i can see whats coming from the inside.
I've been a loner most of my life, which include school and other things and i from the very childhood i kept telling myself i don't need anyone and it held true for me, i don't need anyone but still sometimes it hurts, even that the bunch of people you trust aint with you, though i was with them whenever they needed me, i even ditched people who trusted me for those friends of mine thinking they need me more but nah its all shit.
As the name of this section of the forum suggests "life sucks" and it really does, i had plans to die too but not anymore, now i think lets face the shit, inside i'm broke but i try to look ok to everyone outside, well thats bout it, sorry fer my bad english and i don't think anyone got solutions for what i've been going through still if any great soul has some input on it, i would appreciate that.
take care all,
(life is just) Blackened.