wasted time
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I met this absolutley gorgeous girl 3 years ago in college, we hit it off straight away. Dated for like 3 months. She asked me out.
A few months later she told me she had something to tell me.
She said that she had been molested when she was 5 and raped when she was 16. She said I was the only person she had ever told. To say I felt bad was an understatement. I had never heard anything like this before. She said I was the only person she had had consensual sex with. I could not believe this because she was an absolutely gorgeous girl.
Anyway, it took me a while to deal with this. I got angry alot and cried a few times thinking of the pain she had been through. But after a while she told me that talking about it had helped her alot and she felt like she was worth something again. We were both madly in love.
Anyway things were rosie enough for a while, we had our fights.
People that were jealous I was with her, would tell her I had been ****ing differant girls behind her back. None of which was true. Anyway it turned out she didnt believe me. And last week I found her ****ing my best friend when he was drunk off his face on a dirty floor. I went ****in ballistic. I smashed a load of **** up, all I did to him was push him out of the house, how I didnt do more I will never know.
Anyway, I love her so much but now all I see is a filthy whore. The bond we had is definatly damaged beyond repair. But how sick is that? The girl tells me her dark horrible history and instead of run a million miles, I stayed with her and tried to comfort her. And loved her even more, because she confided in me.
Now I feel like a fool, to have ever cared for her pain, to have wasted my heart and soul and three years of my life on her. To have it all chewed up and spat in my face. How the hell do I deal with this? Im going out of my mind.
I know i posted this yesterday, but im looking for more feedback, thanks
A few months later she told me she had something to tell me.
She said that she had been molested when she was 5 and raped when she was 16. She said I was the only person she had ever told. To say I felt bad was an understatement. I had never heard anything like this before. She said I was the only person she had had consensual sex with. I could not believe this because she was an absolutely gorgeous girl.
Anyway, it took me a while to deal with this. I got angry alot and cried a few times thinking of the pain she had been through. But after a while she told me that talking about it had helped her alot and she felt like she was worth something again. We were both madly in love.
Anyway things were rosie enough for a while, we had our fights.
People that were jealous I was with her, would tell her I had been ****ing differant girls behind her back. None of which was true. Anyway it turned out she didnt believe me. And last week I found her ****ing my best friend when he was drunk off his face on a dirty floor. I went ****in ballistic. I smashed a load of **** up, all I did to him was push him out of the house, how I didnt do more I will never know.
Anyway, I love her so much but now all I see is a filthy whore. The bond we had is definatly damaged beyond repair. But how sick is that? The girl tells me her dark horrible history and instead of run a million miles, I stayed with her and tried to comfort her. And loved her even more, because she confided in me.
Now I feel like a fool, to have ever cared for her pain, to have wasted my heart and soul and three years of my life on her. To have it all chewed up and spat in my face. How the hell do I deal with this? Im going out of my mind.
I know i posted this yesterday, but im looking for more feedback, thanks