Sick in the head.

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natYO

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Yesterday, I was diagnosed as clinically depressed.

This is a new thing for me.

Its kinda weird how mental instability sneaks up on you. I always assumed that I'd be the one helping my friends and loved ones with their troubles, but instead I get struck down with a mad case of the blues. I feel absolutely no desire to spend time with my friends, do my schoolwork, or even leave my room most of the time, and while I am aware of the consequences of my recent actions, I'm not making any conscious effort to prevent them.

I haven't done a single assignment in school for the past month and a half.
I haven't slept well (if at all) since last year. I'm tired all day, but can't sleep at night.
I barely eat anything, if I eat at all.
Music, which has been a major part of my life, holds almost no interest for me anymore.

I don't care about any of this.
My grades suck, my physical health is deteriorating, and I've all but alienated my once close friends. And I still don't care.
I'm enrolling in an independent study program as soon as possible, because the morons I'm forced to interact with at school every day are in no way helping my situation.

I've also been prescribed Imipramine, an antidepressant and sleep-aid, which so far only seems to be aiding the latter. Its also given to young children to prevent enuresis. Bed-wetting. I don't know why that matters, I just found it kinda funny.

In summary, fellow WTFers, I feel like shit. I have for the past year or so.
Any advice, good, bad or otherwise, would be appreciated.
 
Well sounds like a common problem these days. Taking medication for it seems extreme, but you seem to have taken it to the extreme yourself. You need to find a useful hobby, one that helps you interact with people. Life gets us all down, some just take it farther than others.

I hope you feel better soon, I do know dwelling on being sad doesn't help the situation, the answer is to fucking DO SOMETHING. So do something, take your mind off of life, and you'll feel better. Good luck.
 
Do you exercise much? Not exercising actually can aggravate depression. Or you could go out and try doing something different that you haven't done before. Sometimes just sitting around makes depression much worse.
 
Chemicals and hormones run us, but we can have some say in how.

FOOD

Are we what we eat? More and more studies suggest a strong link between what we put into our bodies and how it makes us feel and think. Maintaining good mental and physical health is always important but there are times when you need to push yourself further than normal. For young people facing exams, the pressure can be enormous - they need as much support as possible to perform at their best. Certain foods can help them do that. There is no magic formula, sadly, but a little common sense when choosing meals and snacks will help with the challenges ahead. [read more]




ENDORPHINS

Endorphins are neurohormone polypeptide molecules, synthesised by the hypothalamus of the brain and secreted into the bloodstream by the pituitary gland.

Endorphins are thought to be released from the pituitary during times of pain or stress. Studies have also looked into the affect of acidosis, caused by exercise, on endorphin release. Exercise induced acidosis of the blood appears when prolonged exercise has occurred and oxygen flow to the muscles has decreased. Anaerobic respiration occurs causing lactic acid accumulation, which results in acidosis. This acidosis is then thought to stimulate the pituitary to release the endorphins.

Endorphins are released into the bloodstream by the pituitary. Endorphins have an antagonistic effect and therefore block the release of neurotransmitter molecules from the nerve terminal. NO PAIN SIGNALS REACH THE BRAIN!! The endorphins are therefore said to have an analgaesic effect.

Blood levels of beta-endorphins have been found to increase to as much as five times their resting levels during a prolonged bout of aerobic exercise (over 30mins). This measurement varies from person to person and is affected by how much regular exercise you take part in.

CATECHOLAMINES AND EXERCISE

During times of stress, we activate our sympathetic nervous system. Norepinephrine is a neurotransmitter within the sympathetic nervous system. By stimulating nervous transmission more norepinephrine is able to innervate the adrenal medulla, which is a component making up part of the sympathetic system. Increased innervation of this endocrine gland causes increased release of norepinephrine and epinephrine. When these two chemicals are released into the bloodstream they have an effect on distant tissues and so act as hormones.

The effects of the catecholamines on the nervous system are evidently more to do with norepinephrine as a neurotransmitter. Concentrations of serotonin, another neurotransmitter, are also affected.

Research studies into depression have shown that it is caused by low concentrations or impaired transmission of the neurotransmitters, noreinephrine and serotonin. By increasing the concentration of these transmitters when we exercise, their concentrations in the neurons will increase. Depressed subjects will improve and others will feel a lift in their mood.


CONCLUSION

EAT BETTER AND EXCERCISE THAT MUSHY BUTT OF YOURS!

:twocents:
 
Yes, loms, I am in fact a standard-issue teenager with standard-issue problems.
Like depression.

I have been exercising, actually. Quite a bit more than I have in the past. I take a weight training class at school, and I look better now than I have in about 6 years. While going for independent study would prevent me from continuing that class, I plan to work out with my uncle at least twice a week, doing cardio on the days I'm not lifting.

I really appreciate the support, guys.

A fair bit of good news is the drugs have all but eradicated my insomnia, but I haven't seen any improvement so far in the "I feel like shit and don't wanna do anything" department.
 
I used to be in the same boat, but it turns out that it was a phase from the time that I was eleven to the time I hit nineteen. There's a possibility that your mental instability is going to pass, given time.

I was going to doctors on a regular basis regarding my mental health, getting my meds switched every year because nothing was working. The last time they switched my meds was when I went to see a psychiatrist after having a bad anxiety attack. It took almost eight months for me to even get an appointment with this guy, and when I finally did, I told him what happened, but that I was feeling fine at the moment. However, they still switched my meds on me.

One day, I just stopped taking them. It was odd at first because I was so dependent on chemicals by this point in time. I went through a brief de-tox stage, and now, I've never felt better.

:hug2:



I noticed these in your posts and they really stood out to me, mainly because I felt that way two years ago when I started college, and started doing the same exact things. I wasn't doing assignments in school, didn't sleep well at all, lost my appetite, and music, my life's passion, went down the drain when I got there. I was even taking classes as far as music, and it wasn't helping at all.

I hope things work out for you.
 
Same here brother. I just accept as a part of my life. There are plenty of good times, too.
Clinically depressed? Does that mean you get depressed in clinics? Seriously, I'd just call it a rut, an apathetic phase, a "fuck everyone because they're all assholes" phase.
 
Hey, depression- It sucks. You'll have to figure your way through it. Exercise helps- at least your physical health will stay good. If you do work on cardio that may help release endorphins/seratonins- man, I can not remember which it releases. I have found writing helps with it- write how I feel and what ever comes to mind. I use to write poetry- not that I was any good. I enjoyed it- when it was good, especially.

Life is depressing. We all want more- things, friends, love, attention, whatever.

To get out of that maybe we need to think about what we have that is good, even in the smallest measurement.

Don't let the bastards tread on you or get you down.
 
Funny, thats exactly what I'm getting at.

I've been in the public schooling system for 11 or 12 years now, and nearly all of the people I've come into contact with during that time, teachers, students, and administrators alike, have remained consistent dickbrains. Egocentric little insects, all of them. The constant "everybody idolize me because my shoes cost more than your parent's mortgage payment" attitude really grinds you down over the years. I can't ignore it, because literally 99.9% of the students at my school are like that. Not to mention that said students are totally buddy-buddy with the campus supervisors and administrators, meaning they can get away with almost anything scratch-free.

I'm in a constant state of paranoia at school, because one wrong word or look at a person can get you killed. Not even a remote exaggeration. You mess with one guy (or rather, he messes with you, and you retaliate), and the conflict extends from between you and him, to you, him, and all 40 of his armed gangbanging buddies.

Independent study is looking really good right now.
 
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