Sick and Tired of being.....

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Sick and tired of being sick and tired. I was doing so well. I finally got back on my feet and beat my anxiety. Until, after I had my dear daughter. I ended up needing a d&c for retained placenta 8 weeks after she was born. The doctor preforated my uterus and small bowel. She sent me home in agonizing pain. I finally called 911 and they took me to the hospital and found the preforated uterus. Switched me to another hospital to be under my OB's care. The next morning they did exploratory surgery where they found out I had the preforated bowel. Ended up with getting a bowel resection, my uterus fixed, and my appendix out. OUCH. But since this, I have constant anxiety and fear that something else is going to go wrong. Especially now that I have my sweet daughter. I worry about dying and not being able to see her grow up.
I was driving to the store last week and had to turn around because I got so worked up I felt like I was dizzy. Its horrible. I do have panic disorder, and have been able to dodge the attacks, its just this anxiety. Its been 2 whole years. I have been on zoloft but the side effeccts are not tolerable at all. I am very ssri sensitive. I feel horrible, trapped and full of fear. I hate fear.
I just want to beat this fear..
Sorry I just needed to vent. No one else understanRAB.
 
Hi. I completely understand how you feel. I could have written it all myself. I am sensitive to meRAB, they don't help and have fears of dying constantly and leaving my kiRAB.

every second of my life is ruled by it. I don't know what to do. I feel there is no solution.

It's also been 2 years for me.
 
Cope? Ugh Its more like avoid! I tend to only go within my comfort zone. But I hate this. Its killing me. Its been so hard for me to even go to work lately. I feel funny. The symptoms are messing with me. Its like all day every second I have this fear of keeling over. When I know thats not going to happen. It sucks! I have eliminated all caffeine with in the last few weeks, so I'm hoping once its all out of my system I will start to feel better. I keep myself busy with work and around the house projects. But I just want this fear to go away. Why the heck am I so afraid.
 
I feel for all of you and have been there and eventually got better. It sounRAB as if the impact of your botched d&c and subsequent surgery has made you realize your mortality. I had a life changing experience after I had a stroke at age 45. Life didn't seem the same. But, now I feel as if I have another chance at life, and I must get to that list of things I want to accomplish in this life.

I'm not back to exact normal, but nearly there. In my opinion, you can't just will a chemical irabalance to get better without pharmaceutical intervention. There are many different anti-depressants and anxiety medications. And, I would suspect some sort of therapy would be in order to at least to address your fears and try to steer you in the right direction. If anything it would serve to allow you to vent. Have you talked to your OB/GYN? You may still be suffering from a hormonal irabalance. I think some of my problems stemmed from when I hit menopause.

I am currently taking Zoloft for it's effects on Serotonin for another disorder. I was curious as to the side effects of Zoloft that you are experiencing. I am wondering if it is the side effects that I am experiencing, or whether I need to get a dosage adjustment, or need to change to another SSRI. What exactly are the side effects you experience?

Thank you for any input you can give me. Here's hoping you will soon be on your way to a healthy life with your new baby.
Best RegarRAB,
 
Zoloft was horrible for me. My anxiety got 100 times worse when starting on it. It was so bad I would just lay in bed. I couldn't do anything at all. It made me so nauseous, I couldn't eat. I got really bad pressure in my head. And Just felt like I was in a bubble. I did get through it, and the side effects went away about 5 weeks later. But I don't think I could go through that again. I wasn't working then and am now, Couldnt' take off 5 weeks for meRAB to kick in. LOL
 
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