I have some anxiety issues as well...I finally got over this(because I don't think of this when I take a bath, lol, in other worRAB, I DON'T shower), but I used to have visions of somebody killing me in the shower while I was washing my hair...I literally kept opening my eyes, as they burned like heck to see if anyone was there...but I'd see a man with a knife, which was my imagination, ready to kill me! I think I may have watched one too many scary movies or something!
I also think about death alot and aging, I have some MAJOR aging issues...fear of wrinkles, menopause, illness.
It's like, is there ANYTHING to look forward to as we age? Hopefully death is a good thing, although the wisdom and knowledge that I gained over the years helps me to reflect back on my earlier years and I think "I'm glad that I know this now, wish I knew this then!".....but getting older seems like such a drab sometimes.
I may need counceling on some of these issues I face, the thoughts of aging is excessive and depresses me, but the fear isn't taking over my life...it seems to be getting worse as I get older though. I'm not totally fearful, just melancholy about it I guess with a little fear. But it's going to happen, so I just try to keep saying that to myself...there are BILLIONS of people who goes through the aging process, so who the heck am I? My life is just a small speck in the sand, btw, I'm 33 years old.
I hope you know, you are definitely not alone in suffering through this.
I think what you are doing(coming on here) is a great start. That's what I'm doing. Reading other posts and how others relate can be comforting.
