Some struggle with their jobs, and others don't, but there are always times where we question our abilities.
With a job such as you have, you have to be "on" (clear thinking) all the time, no room for anxiety or fear.
Anxiety and fear doesn't allow the brain to make cognitive logical decisions, nor does it allow the body to react in a safe manner.
Depression is a reaction to anxiety, and I would suspect the more anxiety you're having about questioning your position, your depression will kick in because you're not feeling in control.
I'd never stay at a job that I deemed dangerous or where I couldn't function to the fullest of my capacity. Yes, we all have down days, but your job can have you at risk whether you're on or not...that's the nature of your job.
I suggest you set up options of what you would like to do in your life. You deserve to be happy at your job, in your relationships and with yourself.
I've quit a job because of stress....I never regretted it. It was during a time when my own psychologist was sick and not available. I struggled with depression and finally asked my GP for antidepressants.
I continued with therapy for many years afterward. I'll always have a mental "fragility". I do have a marriage where I can work part-time, but if I had to work full-time...I'd definitely have to be where I wasn't under distress on a daily basis, because for sure the anxiety/depression cycle would happen quickly.
I don't know you, but based on my own experience, if I had to function in a situation as yours and had a chance to get out...I would. If I stayed, I'd only put myself and others possibly at risk.
I hope you're able to list the pros and cons (not a pun here)...and with discussion with others, you'll find a decision that you can live with.
Nothing is perfect.
quincy
With a job such as you have, you have to be "on" (clear thinking) all the time, no room for anxiety or fear.
Anxiety and fear doesn't allow the brain to make cognitive logical decisions, nor does it allow the body to react in a safe manner.
Depression is a reaction to anxiety, and I would suspect the more anxiety you're having about questioning your position, your depression will kick in because you're not feeling in control.
I'd never stay at a job that I deemed dangerous or where I couldn't function to the fullest of my capacity. Yes, we all have down days, but your job can have you at risk whether you're on or not...that's the nature of your job.
I suggest you set up options of what you would like to do in your life. You deserve to be happy at your job, in your relationships and with yourself.
I've quit a job because of stress....I never regretted it. It was during a time when my own psychologist was sick and not available. I struggled with depression and finally asked my GP for antidepressants.
I continued with therapy for many years afterward. I'll always have a mental "fragility". I do have a marriage where I can work part-time, but if I had to work full-time...I'd definitely have to be where I wasn't under distress on a daily basis, because for sure the anxiety/depression cycle would happen quickly.
I don't know you, but based on my own experience, if I had to function in a situation as yours and had a chance to get out...I would. If I stayed, I'd only put myself and others possibly at risk.
I hope you're able to list the pros and cons (not a pun here)...and with discussion with others, you'll find a decision that you can live with.
Nothing is perfect.
quincy