So I got some blood work done over the summer, and my GP referred me to an endocrinologist (going tomorrow), because my TSH levels are too high, suggesting that I have a thyroid problem, most likely hypothyroidism.
And I probably do, because I am overweight, and I have been depressed since I was 12 (16 now). So yesterday I had a REALLY bad day, and I experimented with cutting. It wasn't really cutting. I just made like10 small scrapes on my arm that barely bled - I barely perforated the top layer of skin.
Should I hide them or not? On one hand, I think this might enunciate that I really am having problems, and it's not just some teen angst thing, and maybe that would help with the diagnosis or whatever. My mom always underestimates how I feel, saying that everybody has bad days and their own problems, but I know that normal people don't have as many bad days as I do. I feel like I've been having a bad couple of years. On the other hand I'm really embarrassed, and I don't want people making a big deal and treating me like I have issues. Because I could totally see myself being coerced into some therapy program and suicide prevention talks and ****.
And I probably do, because I am overweight, and I have been depressed since I was 12 (16 now). So yesterday I had a REALLY bad day, and I experimented with cutting. It wasn't really cutting. I just made like10 small scrapes on my arm that barely bled - I barely perforated the top layer of skin.
Should I hide them or not? On one hand, I think this might enunciate that I really am having problems, and it's not just some teen angst thing, and maybe that would help with the diagnosis or whatever. My mom always underestimates how I feel, saying that everybody has bad days and their own problems, but I know that normal people don't have as many bad days as I do. I feel like I've been having a bad couple of years. On the other hand I'm really embarrassed, and I don't want people making a big deal and treating me like I have issues. Because I could totally see myself being coerced into some therapy program and suicide prevention talks and ****.