Should I even try to enlist again?

[Justin]

I've wanted to be in the military my whole life. I've spent a year trying to get into the Navy or the Marine Corps, but was rejected because I had childhood asthma and took adderal and paxil as a child ( I stopped taking my medications at 16 when I was goofing around and jumped out of a car going 25 mph as a stunt to impress some people that I realize now I should have never of hung around). I'm 23 now and have not had any mental or physical problems except for a broken jaw frm the car accident and three dental implants. I took the ASVAB and scored a 94 on the AFQT. I attend college and work to pay for school, but I know in my heart that I want and should be serving my country. I have asked this question here twice before and all I want to hear is some one who isin the military to tell me that I can serve my country and if need be give my life to defend it. With all that said, isn't that enough given my situation. I've been completely honest with my recruiters even though they told me that I should lie on the forms. I want to prove myself and my worth, I want a stranger to walk up to me on the street and say, "Thank you for your selflessness". I don't want to sit around while all my friends go and serve while I have to sit at home and feel like I've failed this nation while everyone else is out there fighting to defend it. Is my heart not in the right place? Am I not entitled to my American Dream? Shouldn't I be given the right to be a Hero, to give myself to a greater cause, a cause more important than myself? Can anyone out there help me? I just need one person to show me the way and I'll walk the hard road by myself the rest of it. I promise I will not fail, I promise that I will triumph and make everyone proud. Everyone I know has or is serving, and i ant to be there too. I have given this my all, now I've fallen flat on my face and just need the guidance of a helping hand to help me get there. This is my purpose in life, this is what I was born to do.