Hi, i have a problem so hear goes,
I am having trouble deciding my sexuality, i have always considered my self straight, having sexual experiences from a young age with girls, i have had girlfriends and always 9/out of10 masturbated over girls, but for the past 10 yrs or so with the internet opening up new avenues i have found my self looking at gay porn, mainly she-males/trans-gender and have always got very excited by them and the thought of sexual activity,
But heres my problem i deiced to act up on my urges and saw a transgender escort for the first time about 8 yrs ago, i loved it but did not want full sex or anal activity at all, but all the other stuff happened, the following day i felt physically ill at what i had done it was so strange? but this feeling wore off and about 2 yrs later hired another transgender escort my last gay experience was maybe 2-3 yrs ago and i am having the urge to have another gay experiance but this time with a guy or a transgender person where as b4 it was with only ladyboys
I don't like the idea of full sex and have had no full sex nor do i want to again i find this strange??, and i have a fantasy about masturbating with another guy a normal guy and then that fantasy moves on to us playing with each other, i really hope that in some way this comes true and it will be a casual meeting somewhere but not a planned one, i watch guy porn on the net but not full sex porn only masturbation vids and stuff and watch shemale porn too but quite like to see the full on thing with that, even though idon't want to practise it
What the hell do you think my orientation is gay? bi? straight-but likes a bit of ther stuff occasionally i really don't know
i want to settle down and have kids but the thought of me having theses urges when i married or have children scares me as i dont think i could look my kids in the eye does any body else understand what im saying or is anyone else in the same position as me cause it is starting to freak me out any advice or opinions would be helpful thank you
Anybody who reads this question or is having problems of any kind read the 4th answer from chris, a very wise and profound statement
I am having trouble deciding my sexuality, i have always considered my self straight, having sexual experiences from a young age with girls, i have had girlfriends and always 9/out of10 masturbated over girls, but for the past 10 yrs or so with the internet opening up new avenues i have found my self looking at gay porn, mainly she-males/trans-gender and have always got very excited by them and the thought of sexual activity,
But heres my problem i deiced to act up on my urges and saw a transgender escort for the first time about 8 yrs ago, i loved it but did not want full sex or anal activity at all, but all the other stuff happened, the following day i felt physically ill at what i had done it was so strange? but this feeling wore off and about 2 yrs later hired another transgender escort my last gay experience was maybe 2-3 yrs ago and i am having the urge to have another gay experiance but this time with a guy or a transgender person where as b4 it was with only ladyboys
I don't like the idea of full sex and have had no full sex nor do i want to again i find this strange??, and i have a fantasy about masturbating with another guy a normal guy and then that fantasy moves on to us playing with each other, i really hope that in some way this comes true and it will be a casual meeting somewhere but not a planned one, i watch guy porn on the net but not full sex porn only masturbation vids and stuff and watch shemale porn too but quite like to see the full on thing with that, even though idon't want to practise it
What the hell do you think my orientation is gay? bi? straight-but likes a bit of ther stuff occasionally i really don't know
i want to settle down and have kids but the thought of me having theses urges when i married or have children scares me as i dont think i could look my kids in the eye does any body else understand what im saying or is anyone else in the same position as me cause it is starting to freak me out any advice or opinions would be helpful thank you
Anybody who reads this question or is having problems of any kind read the 4th answer from chris, a very wise and profound statement