chunky_munkey97
New member
First of all, I'm 13. When I was younger, I always had thoughts about girls. I "had feelings" for girls, but I never said I liked them because I thought that if I did, everyone would hate me. So, I dated guys. I have been in 6 relationships with guys. Last year I was in a relationship with a boy. I really loved him. We stayed together for a year and one month. We never really fought until the last 2 months of our relationship. It was terrible. Finally, we broke up. I was depressed for about three months. I thought about committing suicide and everything. Not just because of the breakup. There were a lot of things going on in my life at the same time. I eventually started getting over everything. I got back into dating. I dated two more guys. But, I never really like guys now. I don't get crushes. I don't daydream about guys like most of my heterosexual friends do. I made some friends who were either gay or bisexual. I watched them date people of the same gender. I realized how happy they were, and how unhappy I was when I dated guys. I can look at girls and be attracted to them. But I'm attracted to guys, too. I don't really know what I am. But, a few month ago I started liking one of my best friends. A few weeks before, she told me that she was bisexual and that she liked me. It seems like when she told me that, I started liking her more with each day. I eventually told her that I thought I was also bisexual. I was so afraid to be with her because I was afraid it would damage our friendship, even though she asked me out. But, when I look at her now, I can't help but just smile. She's perfect. I love her personality, her appearance, her everything. I feel like I've missed my chance. She is now in a committed relationship with a guy. I don't want to get between them because she seems happy. I want what's best for her, and I want her to have what she wants. I haven't told her that I like her. I'm still so afraid. But, it seems like every time we are together, she ends up cuddling with me. She makes it all happen. I usually just go along with it. She talks about another girl. It kills me inside when she does, but when she talks about her, it doesn't seem like she really likes her. It seems more like a fling? I really don't know what you would call it. It just doesn't seem that serious. I don't really care about that, though. I just want to be with her. There is a thing with my other best friend, though. She doesn't accept that I may be bisexual. She is religious and she doesn't accept that people have other sexualities. She said that our friend, who I like, is going to Hell. She also said that if I am bisexual or a lesbian, then I will also go to Hell. It hurts me very badly. I thought that if I told her, she would accept me because I'm her friend. I guess not. I really want to know what to do about that. What if one day, my friend and I do get together? I want to know what to do about my other friend. I'm also afraid that if my friend doesn't accept me, what will my family and other friends say if I tell them? Please, give me all the advice you can. Anything will help.