Sexuality! Am I gay or straight!!!?

[Bob Sponge]

Ok, I will end up writing quite a lot. But please read, All the details might help you answer my question.

Basically, I am having trouble understanding my sexuality. Im a 15 year old Male from the UK.

I started watching porn and masturbating at 11 years old. Always to straight porn.

Then as the years went on, I found myself attracted to both straight, and she-male porn. Then eventually some light solo gay porn. This is all over a period of 5 years. I would masturbate daily, sometimes multiple times, daily to this stuff.

I think its also important to mention that I attended a boys only school.

At around the age of 14, I had a friend come over who I ended up having a gay experience with. Not sex! Just playing with each other and I gave him oral. I loved it at the time, but after felt ashamed and sick.

Fast forward a few years through watching straight, transsexual and some gay porn. Im now 16, and have a girlfriend that I love to bits. We have had sex twice, and had oral, mutual pleasure with each other.

Only problem is, during sex, I went soft both times. I put this down to nerves, but began to worry If it was because I was gay? :S But i stayed hard and can *** from oral with her.

I read that maybe, I had a type of erectile dysfunction due to over use of porn, and how that, my brain is used to extreme levels of porn, which means normal sex may not have been enough to fully stimulate me?

Now, this morning, I woke from a gay dream! A dream where I ended up giving a male friend of mine oral. I am so worried and confused! I also have gay thoughts and fantasies sometimes that get me hard!

I have stopped watching ANY forms of porn! and no masturbation to see if it is due to my porn use.

But im confused and stressed can any of you guys explain whats happening? or whats wrong with me? Maybe Im bisexual?

Thing is, if someone was to ask me right now if i ws gay, straight or bisexual. I would say straight right away. I don't find men out in public sexy or attractive. I always check out sexy girls i walk past in public. its an automatic thing.

I LOVE my girlfriend and im just so confused. Its beginning to depress me =(

Help me anyone?

Thank you in advance!

 

[Josh]

Umm.. you already posted this quesstion but anyhoo..

For me it loooks like you're a bi.

And about that staying soft, well it could be because you were tense and nervous.

 

[kumorifox]

See, this is what happens when there is such a stigma on sexuality of all sorts. People get worried that they don't conform, or that there is something odd about them.

Are you ever intending on going to bed with a man, or doing anything sexual with one? If not, then you're straight. If you're curious about it, then you're bi-curious, and not necessarily bisexual. You love your girlfriend and don't have any qualms about having sex with her, so you're not gay, simple as that. Losing an erection can happen a lot, and it can be due to nerves or anxiety. Try to relax and enjoy the fun. It takes practice and a lot of self-discipline for a while though, especially if you're that anxious about your identity.

Dreams are just dreams. My guess is, because you're so occupied by your sexuality issues, your mind translated this into a dream to help you deal with it. Also, fantasies are just that. Everyone has fantasies, but they don't define you. They are a natural result of the inherent curiosity in many people. Sometimes, you really want to know what something is like, but are afraid, unable or unwilling to experience it, so you turn to fantasies. Nothing wrong with that.

 

[Edward The Original]

you are bisexual, however this should not effect your relationship with your girlfriend. it just means you like guys as well as girls. i suggest you just accept yourself and be happy about it. what you feel is completely natural to you.