Serious questions about sex? Advice needed, please.?

[Rebecca]

So, I'm a teenager and I party and drink occassionally. I've messed around with guys who I barely knew (take into consideration I was drunk a few of those times), but I'm still a virgin. I have a hard time controling myself and I get lost in the moment easily. The thing is I want to lose my virginity and I know that if I drink with a guy again I will not be able to control myself and I will end up losing it. But I see that as maybe a good thing; having sex for the first time while drunk. I've heard that you get attached to the first person you have sex with. My first question is, why is that? Is it true that certain chemicals that are released make you automatically bond with the person? I think that having sex for the first time with someone whom I will never see again would be a good thing. I know that sex and heartbreak go hand in hand, so I would much rather have sex with a hot stranger than with someone I'm in love with. Why I think that probably has a lot to do with the fact that I trust no one not to hurt me and my heart is broken. But regardless, that is the way I see it. My second question: will the fact that I'm not a virgin effect my relationship with the person that I do end up falling in love with and maybe marrying? Is waiting until mairrage seen of as sacred to men as it is to women? The thing is, I don't like to think before I jump. I know that if I do lose my virginity at such a young age and to someone I don't love I will regret it for the rest of my life, but with the way I act (drinking, messing around, etc.) it is bound to happen. I might as well just do it and have as much fun as possible while I'm young. Please answer my two questions and any added advice would be helpful. I take this advice seriously, so please try to help me.