Self harm story. Just a part of it. Read will you? ?

[Beth]

She bleeds because it's *her way of coping. To take the blade to her skin amd slice it open makes her numb. It let's go of the pain she is feeling inside. She doesn't do it for attention she does it for she can't live with the mistakes she has done. She is punishing herself for the way she is, the way she treats other. It's insane, it's not normal but to her it's the only thing she knows. It sets her free from her fears.they double in one night. *She trys to walk away from it but it doesn't last long. And when the blade does no good she gose to the pain pills hoping they will kill off her pain. The scars making it hard for her pain to fade. No one would ever think she would so such a thing. They wouldn't understand for she must have the perfect life.. Not knowing her real parents.. It's for the best.. Fighting after fighting. Getting blamed for everything, taking Blame when she shouldn't. Listened and finaly believed she was the reason her friends cut. Always hearing " since you cut I will to show you how it's like." " if you cut you have to do it 3x worse to me." " your the reason I drink, smoke, and chew." "your the reason I try to kill myself and now going to therapy." it all scared her for she heard this from the ones she thought cared. Loosing them all besides one. Cutting worsens for she can't handle abondonment. She would rather have pain then to feel alone. Now she is cutting again, can someone one help her?**