Out of only ten available seats I was selected (out of thirty people) to go to Korea. I didn't want to go, but I didn't NOT want to go, if you can understand that. I don't like making decisions when I don't have facts, So I was just gonna roll with it. We were outside watching people get tazed who volunteered (FUCK THAT I've already been oc'd)
Sergeant tells me"Hey Read, if you get tazed I'll let you go to Korea!"
I Joke "Fuck that, I don't even want to go." So the fool with the list told the gunnies and they took me off. I told them I was joking and then went to go see what was going on. I didn't want to cause some sort of dilemma. Originally I wanted the decision made for me (cause its probably gonna suck over there and I didn't want make a quick, definite decision and fuck MYSELF). I basically said that I'm neutral and don't care whether I go or not, and pointed out that others REALLY wanted to go, so they took it that I didn't want to go and sent someone else in my place. I could have gotten the rare Korean medal and had a chance to get to know some of the marines better, and who knows what else.
I was really pissed and bummed about it. If she had kept her mouth shut none of that would have happened. On the bright side, its negative 20 degrees over there and I get to stay home with real food and electricity and be warm. I felt even better when I realized I'd have the room to myself for a month and a half, cause my roommate is going too.
If they come back and say they had a great time and did some crazy shit and I'll be pissed again. I'd rather hear they froze their balls off and worked their asses off with little sleep the whole time (which is more likely). Another chance will come around, but I kind of did want to add that to my list of shit I've done.
I'm self destructive in that I over think stuff to the point where I can't figure out what I want to do. I'm always trying to weigh the advantages against the disadvantages. I'm not blaming anyone but myself. I really piss me off sometimes.
Sergeant tells me"Hey Read, if you get tazed I'll let you go to Korea!"
I Joke "Fuck that, I don't even want to go." So the fool with the list told the gunnies and they took me off. I told them I was joking and then went to go see what was going on. I didn't want to cause some sort of dilemma. Originally I wanted the decision made for me (cause its probably gonna suck over there and I didn't want make a quick, definite decision and fuck MYSELF). I basically said that I'm neutral and don't care whether I go or not, and pointed out that others REALLY wanted to go, so they took it that I didn't want to go and sent someone else in my place. I could have gotten the rare Korean medal and had a chance to get to know some of the marines better, and who knows what else.
I was really pissed and bummed about it. If she had kept her mouth shut none of that would have happened. On the bright side, its negative 20 degrees over there and I get to stay home with real food and electricity and be warm. I felt even better when I realized I'd have the room to myself for a month and a half, cause my roommate is going too.
If they come back and say they had a great time and did some crazy shit and I'll be pissed again. I'd rather hear they froze their balls off and worked their asses off with little sleep the whole time (which is more likely). Another chance will come around, but I kind of did want to add that to my list of shit I've done.
I'm self destructive in that I over think stuff to the point where I can't figure out what I want to do. I'm always trying to weigh the advantages against the disadvantages. I'm not blaming anyone but myself. I really piss me off sometimes.