Ive got a dilema with a women ive known. Little history and info. I met this girl when i was very young she is my neices best friend, We really didnt grow up together but we have been around each other all our lives. She would come over to my brothers house and spend the night with my neice and such. the whole family would be there. me, my sis, my mom, brother, his wife, his daughter(my neice) and ol' girl. there would be times when we hanged out and such when we were little. anyway family issues happened and we didnt hangout at my brothers as much since we lived across town.
so we grew up and things started to get serious once i saw her again. she was beautiful, im taking butterflies in my stomach when i saw her. so i talked to her, got her number, we would talk for hours on end on the phone, text non stop, see each other when her parents would let me(her mom loves me by the way) see each other when we were not allowed to. all that good stuff (i remember the first kiss, kickass) we got together for a bit(i was on and off with this bad person of a gf,( NOTE i didnt cheat on either girl) then things just dwendled from there with me and her. so we didnt talk for a good couple of months(5-6 months i believe it was i tried texting her but no texts back) and then we talked again. i ditched the girlfriend and lead the single life. anyway me and her talked again,and eventually went out again it was great for 3 months then my gut instinct told me that i had a feeling she was cheating on me. we didnt hangout as much and didnt get to see each other as much(need i remind you i live RIGHT BESIDE HER PARENTS HOUSE, and she still lives with her parents, im in an upstairs apartment/house)
its been a good 9-10 months now been single ever since, and i dont mind it. i have cut off all communication with her, i dont acknowledge her at all she did text me about 3 months into me ignoring her saying she was sorry and i said for what and she said the famous IDK phrase. so i told her to dont worry bout it, and ive been ignoring her. anyway no matter what i try to do i cant get her out of my head, it seems like every impossible moment i go outside to take out trash, check my motorcyles, go out for a ride on my motorcycle, do something outside i ALWAYS run into her! it never fails. i try to ignore her the best i can, its working so far, but i dont want it to be like this. i cant get the balls to say hello to her, or a simple "hey", its like im intimidated by her. there is a kind of discust in myself and i hate myself for being this way i cant explain it ( i treated her bad the last 3 weeks i was with her maybe thats why? i tend to be very mean if i think a girl is cheating on me, been in one long term relationship little over a year prior and that and she was a slut needless to say) maybe it was a jealousy issue. im not sure it made it seem like i wasnt her bf you know? and i got very upset over that.
anyway id like to atleast talk to her, or Finish what we went through and close the book so to speak, but i have feelings for her, and her mom tells me she misses me alot and misses "the old us". anyway shes had a couple of guys in the past few months, i believe shes got a bf now. hes over all the time, which is a shot to the gut, just so happens when im out there they are taken the trash out together and shes jumpin on his back for a back ride(kinda makes me think shes saying*im happier without you kinda sayin*) tryin to make me jealous, and it kinda does but i gotta deal with that. im not sure what to do guys, and sorry for the long post. im sure it doesnt even make sense thankyou for your time reading all this. i just want some help and opinions good or bad.
so we grew up and things started to get serious once i saw her again. she was beautiful, im taking butterflies in my stomach when i saw her. so i talked to her, got her number, we would talk for hours on end on the phone, text non stop, see each other when her parents would let me(her mom loves me by the way) see each other when we were not allowed to. all that good stuff (i remember the first kiss, kickass) we got together for a bit(i was on and off with this bad person of a gf,( NOTE i didnt cheat on either girl) then things just dwendled from there with me and her. so we didnt talk for a good couple of months(5-6 months i believe it was i tried texting her but no texts back) and then we talked again. i ditched the girlfriend and lead the single life. anyway me and her talked again,and eventually went out again it was great for 3 months then my gut instinct told me that i had a feeling she was cheating on me. we didnt hangout as much and didnt get to see each other as much(need i remind you i live RIGHT BESIDE HER PARENTS HOUSE, and she still lives with her parents, im in an upstairs apartment/house)
its been a good 9-10 months now been single ever since, and i dont mind it. i have cut off all communication with her, i dont acknowledge her at all she did text me about 3 months into me ignoring her saying she was sorry and i said for what and she said the famous IDK phrase. so i told her to dont worry bout it, and ive been ignoring her. anyway no matter what i try to do i cant get her out of my head, it seems like every impossible moment i go outside to take out trash, check my motorcyles, go out for a ride on my motorcycle, do something outside i ALWAYS run into her! it never fails. i try to ignore her the best i can, its working so far, but i dont want it to be like this. i cant get the balls to say hello to her, or a simple "hey", its like im intimidated by her. there is a kind of discust in myself and i hate myself for being this way i cant explain it ( i treated her bad the last 3 weeks i was with her maybe thats why? i tend to be very mean if i think a girl is cheating on me, been in one long term relationship little over a year prior and that and she was a slut needless to say) maybe it was a jealousy issue. im not sure it made it seem like i wasnt her bf you know? and i got very upset over that.
anyway id like to atleast talk to her, or Finish what we went through and close the book so to speak, but i have feelings for her, and her mom tells me she misses me alot and misses "the old us". anyway shes had a couple of guys in the past few months, i believe shes got a bf now. hes over all the time, which is a shot to the gut, just so happens when im out there they are taken the trash out together and shes jumpin on his back for a back ride(kinda makes me think shes saying*im happier without you kinda sayin*) tryin to make me jealous, and it kinda does but i gotta deal with that. im not sure what to do guys, and sorry for the long post. im sure it doesnt even make sense thankyou for your time reading all this. i just want some help and opinions good or bad.