ok to start off im a guy and im 15 who thinks he is bi. school ends in 3 weeks and after the last day is up i move to the other side of the country. i also have social issues.
this started about the beggining of sophmore year when i first met 2 guys who ill call thing 1 and thing 2. over the first semester there was normal but noticed i tended to stray a bit of a look at thing 1 now and again..finals for the semester come along and i sit in front of thing 2 who during the duration of the final rubs his leg up against the back of mine and i had this tingly sensation for the duration and had a good long think about it over winter break(plus a dream where we kissed and what not, didnt end well as got caught)...the next semester comes along and i make a facebook account (comes up later) and i notice im really attracted to both things in some way (they the same to me as when i looked i also tended to catch them looking at me). things go on and i get real fed up one day and release a bunch of tension on a status update on face book explaining how i hate myself i have no friends etc. thing 1 pitys me and wants to help me be more social and is now a closeish aquaintence (my dads not home all the time for weeks at a time and i have developed the thinking of him being my father-figure, i trust him the most out of anyone). however the things are friends and thing 2 will not talk to me out of school due to me constantly texting thing 1 everyday (i know...creepy) i have the notion that thing 2 is gay or bi as he shows numerous signs and does some wierd things (last week posted "lol im a homo" on his status). and thing 1 has a gf but i really really like him and he too shows signs but idk.... :/
and another thing the moving is going to impeed any sort of get to know them more over summer as ill be 3000+ miles away, i have 3 weeks to sort this out personally, i run the huge risk of getting my life ruined (some aquaintences played a joke a bit too far when they googled gay.com on my phone and mom found it and she flipped) as my parents (specially momma) HATE gay people and have told me they will disown me and kick me out and make my life utter hell if i was gay or bi. thing 1 and 2 are the only boys i have ever liked and other than that its girls.
i can keep in touch due to facebook and skype and if i get all As next year i can move back
please help
this started about the beggining of sophmore year when i first met 2 guys who ill call thing 1 and thing 2. over the first semester there was normal but noticed i tended to stray a bit of a look at thing 1 now and again..finals for the semester come along and i sit in front of thing 2 who during the duration of the final rubs his leg up against the back of mine and i had this tingly sensation for the duration and had a good long think about it over winter break(plus a dream where we kissed and what not, didnt end well as got caught)...the next semester comes along and i make a facebook account (comes up later) and i notice im really attracted to both things in some way (they the same to me as when i looked i also tended to catch them looking at me). things go on and i get real fed up one day and release a bunch of tension on a status update on face book explaining how i hate myself i have no friends etc. thing 1 pitys me and wants to help me be more social and is now a closeish aquaintence (my dads not home all the time for weeks at a time and i have developed the thinking of him being my father-figure, i trust him the most out of anyone). however the things are friends and thing 2 will not talk to me out of school due to me constantly texting thing 1 everyday (i know...creepy) i have the notion that thing 2 is gay or bi as he shows numerous signs and does some wierd things (last week posted "lol im a homo" on his status). and thing 1 has a gf but i really really like him and he too shows signs but idk.... :/
and another thing the moving is going to impeed any sort of get to know them more over summer as ill be 3000+ miles away, i have 3 weeks to sort this out personally, i run the huge risk of getting my life ruined (some aquaintences played a joke a bit too far when they googled gay.com on my phone and mom found it and she flipped) as my parents (specially momma) HATE gay people and have told me they will disown me and kick me out and make my life utter hell if i was gay or bi. thing 1 and 2 are the only boys i have ever liked and other than that its girls.
i can keep in touch due to facebook and skype and if i get all As next year i can move back
please help