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Detective Goldfish

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A lot of things happened the past few months, no I suppose it was built upon in 3 years.
When things got rough, I coped and tried living my life, now I am trying to be strong and a lot kinder.
I want to be nicer and someone that understands others. I want to accept everyone and love everyone for who they are and so I may love myself.
Today though, the room in which I thought I emptied out of sorrow and pain, I found dust and some left over. Perhaps I was trying to ignore it? I don't know, but it hit me in the heart as if someone slapped me across the face. Couldn't go home to show my this face to my family, so I went to a parking lot near by and cried until I started bleeding. It's this pain that I thought I was over, but there were some left over that I didn't realize before. No maybe true strength is to say that maybe I have to clear it out even more.
I want to be stronger, kinder, and a lot more understanding. But I suppose I should start understanding myself first?

My question is, I want my friends to rely on me when they're feeling pain, I want them to know that I am there for them, but sometimes I have my own questions, and my question is do strong people rely on others...? I post this here so no one that knows me can see, I ask this here so I can get a strangers point of view that wouldn't care to hurt my feelings. I post this here because I want an answer.
 
Sometimes we shoulder responsibility that isn't ours. It's okay to not help everybody all the time.

You should find people to talk to about these feelings before they get out of control. Websites like these can be a wonderful resource if you don't know where to start, but if you are trying get through this on your own, you may be hurting yourself more than helping.

I'm not sure what happened to you, but the best advice I can give would be to find some help. Depression is a real problem, therapy and medicine can help. There are also other issues like Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) that can affect us in ways we don't even understand.

Don't look for answers from people who don't know your situation, or that don't know you. The best you can get here are opinions, and most of those will be bad ones. The best thing you can do is let down your guard and get some help.
 
You may be going through a period of Body/Mind Chemistry Imbalance that is a normal event as the human body evolves from child to adult.
this event can affect to a greater or lesser degree, as we are all different, as we come from different Genetic Base composition.
Our Body Chemistry, is designed to build -Repair, and as well, keep in check our brain chemistry balance. our emotions have a tremendous effect on our brain chemistry, you have seen the results of examples when individuals Fall in Love / Get Greedy / Break up a Relationship.
but the most dangerous emotion to our brain chemistry is Anger!
Anger especially Unresolved Anger, can seriously hamper the minds ability to temper our thoughts-Perception of situations and events with the appropriate level of Tolerance - Compassion and Wisdom.
Anger management is only a Band-aid solution.
To change your thinking and perception process, you have to learn how to get rid of Unresolved Anger.
Not All people can do it, You have to place yourself above the normal day to day people.
If you are able, you will experience the following - a Great weight will lift from your shoulders, and an Aura of Calm - Peace - and Serenity will descend and surround your every thought and action, and you will begin to perceive all situations and events in an extremely different manner, than you would have ever thought possible.
I did it through a book on how to Forgive.
the closest thing I have found on the web to deal with it is "The Forgiveness Pyramid".
Don't allow your emotions to cast this process as not possible. Try it!
Make a list of every person that has ever offended or abused you in any way, from childhood to the present. (you don't forgive them Face to Face, but only in your mind, as well this process is not to help the abuser but to release you from the events.
As far as your feelings at the moment, You are not alone. - It doesn't last forever, see "Depression and Famous People"
See a Doctor if your moods seem to get more disturbing, as the Doctor can prescribe medication to balance out the brain chemistry.
Good Luck, and Don't quit trying,
You Can Do It!
 
Sometimes we shoulder responsibility that isn't ours. It's okay to not help everybody all the time.

You should find people to talk to about these feelings before they get out of control. Websites like these can be a wonderful resource if you don't know where to start, but if you are trying get through this on your own, you may be hurting yourself more than helping.

I'm not sure what happened to you, but the best advice I can give would be to find some help. Depression is a real problem, therapy and medicine can help. There are also other issues like Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) that can affect us in ways we don't even understand.

Don't look for answers from people who don't know your situation, or that don't know you. The best you can get here are opinions, and most of those will be bad ones. The best thing you can do is let down your guard and get some help.
 
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