Mohawk Tom
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I know this probably seems like the kind of question that people ask a lot but I have really been driving myself insane trying to figure it out.
Basically a friend of mine came over recently to hang out for a while I've been feeling really down lately because I can't find a job and it's taking a toll on my self-esteem so we agreed to hangout and maybe get the thought of having to find a job off my mind. Ordered some pizza and and bought a jug of captain morgan lol alcohol always results in stuff like this I know. Long story short we got completely trashed and when I woke up the next morning I was on the floor naked and so was he we were next to each other there were a couple used condoms in the trash can and an empty bottle of lube as well....we pretty much killed the whole jug of rum so I couldn't remember a thing from the night before and neither could he but we pretty much figured out from the situation we woke up in what we had done.
He didn't seem to embarrassed by it or freaked out or anything but I wouldn't expect him to be I've known for a couple years now that he's bisexual but I've always seen myself as straight...sure I got curious a couple times here and there in high school but most teenagers usually do question themselves at least once or twice you know? Anyway the problem is I don't really even remember if I liked it...I know it seems weird to think about it I mean if we were wasted and can't remember a thing maybe we should just let it go and all but like for some reason I really want to remember how it felt and if I enjoyed it...the only thing I do remember is that he performed anal sex on me and I did the same to him but like I said I can't remember a thing about what it felt like so yeah....
Maybe I should try it again sober and see if I like it? Or should I just let it go and try to forget about it or something like that? I'm completely confused really I don't know what to make of this situation at all.
It doesn't help much that he's been known to hit on me from time to time since we were teenagers sometimes it's hard to tell when he's joking and when he's serious and I THINK what may have led to us doing what we did was him trying to mess around and being as drunk as we were I guess maybe I couldn't tell if he was joking or serious and we just wound up doing it....I don't know. What should I do?
Basically a friend of mine came over recently to hang out for a while I've been feeling really down lately because I can't find a job and it's taking a toll on my self-esteem so we agreed to hangout and maybe get the thought of having to find a job off my mind. Ordered some pizza and and bought a jug of captain morgan lol alcohol always results in stuff like this I know. Long story short we got completely trashed and when I woke up the next morning I was on the floor naked and so was he we were next to each other there were a couple used condoms in the trash can and an empty bottle of lube as well....we pretty much killed the whole jug of rum so I couldn't remember a thing from the night before and neither could he but we pretty much figured out from the situation we woke up in what we had done.
He didn't seem to embarrassed by it or freaked out or anything but I wouldn't expect him to be I've known for a couple years now that he's bisexual but I've always seen myself as straight...sure I got curious a couple times here and there in high school but most teenagers usually do question themselves at least once or twice you know? Anyway the problem is I don't really even remember if I liked it...I know it seems weird to think about it I mean if we were wasted and can't remember a thing maybe we should just let it go and all but like for some reason I really want to remember how it felt and if I enjoyed it...the only thing I do remember is that he performed anal sex on me and I did the same to him but like I said I can't remember a thing about what it felt like so yeah....
Maybe I should try it again sober and see if I like it? Or should I just let it go and try to forget about it or something like that? I'm completely confused really I don't know what to make of this situation at all.
It doesn't help much that he's been known to hit on me from time to time since we were teenagers sometimes it's hard to tell when he's joking and when he's serious and I THINK what may have led to us doing what we did was him trying to mess around and being as drunk as we were I guess maybe I couldn't tell if he was joking or serious and we just wound up doing it....I don't know. What should I do?