Senseless.Surroundings
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Hi everyone.
Right well I have been on here before, I suffer from GAD and depression, but I have been going to therapy to help with the anxiety and it helped quite a lot, but the depression and rapid mood swings/emptiness/anger etc still really affect me.
Recently I have been having strange experiences whilst watching television. Its like I watch something, and suddenely I find it REALLY hard to concentrate on what is happeneing, like I have to really listen hard, and I start to feeel all anxious and tense and worried , as if missing the storyline is really really awful ( I know- it's ONLY a crappy TV programme) It's almost like I'm watching it in a different language or something?? Or like...drowning in information overload?
Secondly, I have started feeling irrationally wary of other peoples efforts to help me. For example, I have this ongoing issue with this guy who majorly mindfucked me, messed me around etc, not going into it its long and irrelevant, but I have been talking to my friends recently about trying to forget him and move on, and many of them tell me that I am too good for him, I deserve better he's a dick etc, and they tell me I should delete him or block him, from msn and facebook and such, but for some reason when they say that I cant help but think its because they don't want me to even have a chance of rekindling anything with him???? I havent spoken to him in like 2 months, I iniciated convo once and its clear hes got what he wanted from me and doesnt care, but I still cant just delete him, in case they all are rushing me into it???? It's weird and uncomfortable, and it happens with quite a few situations.
I'm not entirely sure whats going on with me right now, I keep having strange little changes in behaviour, weird burst of energy, weird urges to be aggressive, Bouts of feeling really tearful and despairing, and then times where i am just so bored or apathetic and monotonous.
Does anyone have any ideas/share these experiences??
I'm not on any meds for depression, I am trying to work my way through it with therapy (which I've now finished my course of) and CBT (I've been put on the waiting list as my therapist said it might help me with my mood fluctuations)
I am on Accutane though, i've been taking it for a month BUT I personally do not think this is making these changes, as I have been depressed for a long long time, and have gone through similar experiences before.
Thanks in advance x
Right well I have been on here before, I suffer from GAD and depression, but I have been going to therapy to help with the anxiety and it helped quite a lot, but the depression and rapid mood swings/emptiness/anger etc still really affect me.
Recently I have been having strange experiences whilst watching television. Its like I watch something, and suddenely I find it REALLY hard to concentrate on what is happeneing, like I have to really listen hard, and I start to feeel all anxious and tense and worried , as if missing the storyline is really really awful ( I know- it's ONLY a crappy TV programme) It's almost like I'm watching it in a different language or something?? Or like...drowning in information overload?
Secondly, I have started feeling irrationally wary of other peoples efforts to help me. For example, I have this ongoing issue with this guy who majorly mindfucked me, messed me around etc, not going into it its long and irrelevant, but I have been talking to my friends recently about trying to forget him and move on, and many of them tell me that I am too good for him, I deserve better he's a dick etc, and they tell me I should delete him or block him, from msn and facebook and such, but for some reason when they say that I cant help but think its because they don't want me to even have a chance of rekindling anything with him???? I havent spoken to him in like 2 months, I iniciated convo once and its clear hes got what he wanted from me and doesnt care, but I still cant just delete him, in case they all are rushing me into it???? It's weird and uncomfortable, and it happens with quite a few situations.
I'm not entirely sure whats going on with me right now, I keep having strange little changes in behaviour, weird burst of energy, weird urges to be aggressive, Bouts of feeling really tearful and despairing, and then times where i am just so bored or apathetic and monotonous.
Does anyone have any ideas/share these experiences??
I'm not on any meds for depression, I am trying to work my way through it with therapy (which I've now finished my course of) and CBT (I've been put on the waiting list as my therapist said it might help me with my mood fluctuations)
I am on Accutane though, i've been taking it for a month BUT I personally do not think this is making these changes, as I have been depressed for a long long time, and have gone through similar experiences before.
Thanks in advance x