So i've had a couple questions on here about this before. But this is kind of an update, but with another question. I'm attracted to women and I always have been. Recently, it seems like not as much as before though. I see a beautiful girl and it's no longer like it was to where i was amazed just to be around her, I acknowledge that she is beautiful though. I've been told that I may be bi but with more of a straight preference. I'm not attracted to any guys I know. Well let me explain that a bit more. I know that there are attractive guys in my school but I have no interest in them, I acknowledge that they are cute or etc and that's it. However, in my alone time my mind goes wild and keeps constantly asking if i'm gay or not. It's annoying. Is it possible to be attracted to guys only in fantasy or in porn but not RL? I don't watch porn alot but when I do...i can really watch any kind. Two girls, Guy and Girl, or two guys...however, the last one isn't done too frequent. It will arouse me but i don't really like it. This is what confuses me. I'm just worried that I may be in denial or something. I just don't understand how I can be attracted to women all the time and be sure of my sexuality and then all of a sudden this happens. In fact, i was watching the gay porn atleast a year before this happened and i never thought much of it. Yea, it works but who gives a **** I still choose women. That was my mentality. But now i'm not sure. Could it be by depression? As in...being in love with a girl you know really well but can't have? Or add that to the fact that every girl you like and that happens to like you back has a bf who you really don't understand why they are dating? Not attracted to guys in RL...but I am women. It seems I am attracted to women really really strongly emotionally and the sexually is there but it usually requires physical...touch to trigger it. It used to just be thoughts...I have no interest in being with a guy...but as i said before, the thoughts trigger it but nothing else. And i'm pretty sure i would want at least one guy in my school if I were actually attracted to guys. Is this just a phase? Am i worrying too much because i haven't had a gf in a while but constantly get screwed over?
thanks for any answers in advance
thanks for any answers in advance