I dont understand why recently ive been feeling different. I used to hang out with my friends and a lot of them are good looking guys...but i never started to see them in the way i see them now...it freaks me out and i totally dont wanna be feeling this way. I feel like they become eveb more attractive the more i think about it and the more i get afraid the more the feelings itensify...and then my head starts spinning...like i ask myself, could i go and kiss this guy? and i answer myself and say probably yes...but them i focus on something else or get distracted and i feel like nothing happened and even tell myself "its just a dude".....i dont understand..i feel like its anxiety...i always been atracted to women..but at the same i always been afraid of becoming bisexual or gay..i think my parents used to talk a lot about it that i got a sort of panic...i dont know whats going on..i dont feel myself...i feel like im always trying to convince myself that im straight.
I sometimes get across guys that are good looking at work...and then the whole thing starts..and most of the time i am trying to avoid the thoughts and feelings...but the funny thing is that, if for example i start hanging out with the guy or go to bar or becomes friends with him, i lose the fear and he seems like just another dude...and no thoughts or ideas come...i dont understand....however with girls its always the same, they always look sexy and im always trying to get in their pants....i dont understand why this is happening to me and wanted to find out what you think, recomend or if there is anyone else outthere that is going through the same problem..sometimes i dont even wanna come out of my house..when i feel safe everything feels better..im afraid of the thoughts and what thye could turn me into..i dont think i am gay or bisexual but they definetly put me in doubt constantly that i dont even know what to believe anymore...
ive been to two different psicologists so far and they both have told me that they dont think im gay nor bisexual but instead that I have ANXIETY.....could that be it?
I sometimes get across guys that are good looking at work...and then the whole thing starts..and most of the time i am trying to avoid the thoughts and feelings...but the funny thing is that, if for example i start hanging out with the guy or go to bar or becomes friends with him, i lose the fear and he seems like just another dude...and no thoughts or ideas come...i dont understand....however with girls its always the same, they always look sexy and im always trying to get in their pants....i dont understand why this is happening to me and wanted to find out what you think, recomend or if there is anyone else outthere that is going through the same problem..sometimes i dont even wanna come out of my house..when i feel safe everything feels better..im afraid of the thoughts and what thye could turn me into..i dont think i am gay or bisexual but they definetly put me in doubt constantly that i dont even know what to believe anymore...
ive been to two different psicologists so far and they both have told me that they dont think im gay nor bisexual but instead that I have ANXIETY.....could that be it?