My life…
It’s a mess
Its horrible
No one would want a life like mine
Its filled with haters and lies
I cut thinking it would help with everything that went on
I got sexual harassed for years
You could say it happened again for a half hour by a boy that I thought was my friend
But if I was saying my friends pressuring me into stuff, sexual stuff that is, it happened a lot then
I lost my first crush in a car accident when I was going into grade 3
In Kindergarden my 2 friends ran away from me and told the teachers we were just playing tag when I knew they weren’t
My mom was an alcoholic
She stopped to save the family after one horrible Halloween accident that almost broke my family up for good
Half my family does drugs the others don’t care about me
My first drink in grade 5
First time getting drunk grade 7
Tired things with a girl
Witch opened a new door for me and a new chapter in my life
It went from a dare to a real thing
A touch, then a kiss, then a make out, a hicky next, then got serious and we fingered each other
We actually had a real feel for each other and soon just got drunk or high to do things with each other
She was my first make out, after I knew what I was doing I liked it , so it made me make out with people and want to, I was a lot of peoples first make outs,
I lost a few people I loved and gained some new ones,
Thought I loved a boy maybe I did , but I met someone else and it changed my look at life, and made me think I really didn’t love that other boy I loved this one, but I made bad choices and things happened so fast that I wounded up cheating on the one I loved dearly I did it with out feeling bad, since he had everything he gave me everything but sexual satisfaction I was just doing what I thought was right to keep me and that boy I loved together,
But it didn’t work out and we broke up after 7 months of dating and over a year of having a thing.
Promised to get back together when we could actually see each other and not having to hide talking to each other, maybe once he actually talked to his parents, and we were allowed seeing each other we would date again and it would be different, and I wouldn’t have to cheat…
My lifes fucked, and no body knows it,
But know you just might….
You might not understand why I did certain things but even I still don’t,
But here is my story on only a quarter of my life, not even only 14 years….
It’s a mess
Its horrible
No one would want a life like mine
Its filled with haters and lies
I cut thinking it would help with everything that went on
I got sexual harassed for years
You could say it happened again for a half hour by a boy that I thought was my friend
But if I was saying my friends pressuring me into stuff, sexual stuff that is, it happened a lot then
I lost my first crush in a car accident when I was going into grade 3
In Kindergarden my 2 friends ran away from me and told the teachers we were just playing tag when I knew they weren’t
My mom was an alcoholic
She stopped to save the family after one horrible Halloween accident that almost broke my family up for good
Half my family does drugs the others don’t care about me
My first drink in grade 5
First time getting drunk grade 7
Tired things with a girl
Witch opened a new door for me and a new chapter in my life
It went from a dare to a real thing
A touch, then a kiss, then a make out, a hicky next, then got serious and we fingered each other
We actually had a real feel for each other and soon just got drunk or high to do things with each other
She was my first make out, after I knew what I was doing I liked it , so it made me make out with people and want to, I was a lot of peoples first make outs,
I lost a few people I loved and gained some new ones,
Thought I loved a boy maybe I did , but I met someone else and it changed my look at life, and made me think I really didn’t love that other boy I loved this one, but I made bad choices and things happened so fast that I wounded up cheating on the one I loved dearly I did it with out feeling bad, since he had everything he gave me everything but sexual satisfaction I was just doing what I thought was right to keep me and that boy I loved together,
But it didn’t work out and we broke up after 7 months of dating and over a year of having a thing.
Promised to get back together when we could actually see each other and not having to hide talking to each other, maybe once he actually talked to his parents, and we were allowed seeing each other we would date again and it would be different, and I wouldn’t have to cheat…
My lifes fucked, and no body knows it,
But know you just might….
You might not understand why I did certain things but even I still don’t,
But here is my story on only a quarter of my life, not even only 14 years….