Hey all,
First off, I apologize for the long post but I need to discuss everything so I get get some good feedback.
I am now posting here in desperation. I am suffering severely from a lack of energy, short term memory loss, lethargy, no charisma, hair loss, acne and P.E.
I have posted on here before with no success.
Some background info of me:
Im a 22 year old male vegetarian (no meat fish or eggs).
70kg/154lb
1.83cm/6ft
My symptoms started at about 17 years of age (5 years ago) and they were mostly physical in that I was only affected by a lack of energy. I firmly believed it was burn out from studying for exams because I was under alot of pressure doing alot more than I had to. After high school, I thought the problem would resolve itself, but the lack of energy continued and at 18 I had a severe loss of libido. Infact, for about an entire year I could not even bring myself to ejaculate because I had such a low libido. I should also mention that even though I was severely lacking in energy, I remained positive and jovial and used to talk alot and socialize and go out and was a generally happy person.
Since then, I have gone through and graduated from college with this problem having affected by mental state. I am now no longer positive and I am an unhappy person. I lack energy, I have trouble with memory ( I struggled to remember short term things and words), I don't talk to people because I find it exhaustive, I have premature ejaculation, my hair is thinning out (in the front only, my hairline has receded substantially).Additionally, when I was 16-17 I remember being really well defined - my muscle was tight and I didnt even use to work out then! Now I feel like I have lost my definition like my muscle seems bloated and saggy regardless of how much I work out. My body fat is about 11% which I think is pretty low.
2 years ago, my best friend passed away from an anneurism and this really affected me badly. I went to see a psychologist because I was knocked down really badly and in conjuction with my problems prior to his death, I just couldnt cope. The psychologist advised me that I had social anxiety which led to my depression and prescribed me anti-depressants. I declinded the anti depressants because I believe my problems stemmed from a physical problem. I have always been a quiet person, but not quiet in that I am shy or scared. I just always preffered to work alone and only liked to socialize with those who i was close with - im not the sort to go make small talk with strangers.
I consider myself to be extremely healthy in that I am vegetarian, eat a very healthy diet, I excercise alot and I hardly drink. About a month ago I began taking a multi vitamin with the hopes I would grow my hair back or at least stop the hair loss.
About 6 months ago I visited a doctor for blood test to see why my energy levels and memory was so bad. He reported that my blood test came out normal and that my problem was psychological and I should see a psychologist - i didnt tell him I had already been to one.
So now I come here with the hopes that someone could please help me! In a nutshell, I feel REALLY burned out! I wish I could just run away to an island for a year where there is no technology, no stress, no worries - just peace. I want to clear my mind and start on a clean plate!
My life is really taking a knock right now. Im about to start working for the first time and I want to start my career with alot of energy and I just dont feel like I can do my best given the way I feel. I should also mention, in college I used to spoke alot of marijuana mostly because it made me feel so much mentally better (although it did me no good physically). I have since stopped.
PLEASE HELP ME. I want to be the person I was when I was 16 with alot of energy and charisma and mental clarity! I do not believe my physical problems are a cause of depression, in fact i think it is the other way around. I feel my "depression" is a result of my lack of energy. Guys. Please help. Post even if you dont think it will help.
BTW, the multivitamin i am taking is called Vitathion, it is a multi vitamin and contains ATP which supposedly gives you more energy.