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kaley

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Hello all,

I have not been on here for a long time, but I use to frequent this board a lot in the past. In 2005-2006 I had terrible health anxiety. It would happen daily where I would get locked on the physical feelings in my body and I had every disease in the book. I started taking medication and eventually it started to get better, in fact I almost forgot how horrible it really is to be trapped in your own mind.

Now, the past couple years I have been under a great deal of stress, caring for two sick parents, my own health and a very stressful job. But none of the anxiety came back up until recently. In the past couple of months it is all coming back to me, and I am in CONSTANT fear of something bad happening. All I ever do is worry and EVERY physical symptom I have starts me on the road to panic. My mom has tumors in her skull base and has had 3 different extensive surgeries in the past 2 and 1/2 years, and my dad has Alzheimer's. I worry about them constantly , but I have not had any panic attacks until just recently. Why didn't they come back when I was under the greatest amount of stress??? I don't get it at all. I am scared to be in my house alone, as that is where it always happens. I was convinced this past weekend that I had a blood clot in my leg, and it ruined my entire weekend. Am I turning things inward now, because dealing with the every day is so stressful? If anyone can shed some light on this it would be greatly appreciated.

The entire time my mom was in the hospital I had no panic at all, and now it is coming back to me in full force. Could it be that my body has finally had enough stress and it is coming out in panic and anxiety???

Thanks in advance to any that can help me. I feel that I am living in my own personal hell, with no relief.

Kaley
 
I have been there and I know how you feel. I'm sorry that I don't have answers. My worst bouts with anxiety were at "calm" times in my life - i've never battled anxiety during stressful perioRAB. I don't know why that is, and it doesn't make much sense to me. It's like it gets bottled up and then comes to haunt you when your life has calmed down a bit. I hope you feel better soon!
 
I'm right where you are. I'm convinced I'm dying (I'm not) but I have been sick with a bug lately so I, of course, have exacerbated all of my symptoms and diagnosed myself with death. While what I just said is a bit funny, I'm not laughing. I am scared all the time. One month ago I WAS FINE! Christmas came and went and I was fine. Now, I'm a mess. I cry ALL the time. I don't have any idea what is going on. I don't know how to stop it. I can tell you that I am an avid runner and I have not been able to run for the last month (time constraints, kiRAB sick, work, etc). Yesterday I finally went for a walk and that really did seem to help. It seems if I sit for too long the more anxious I become. Try to stay busy. Do you have a therapist you go to regularly? I don't. :( Try a massage, a walk, something that is totally aimed at relaxation and releasing endorphins naturally. While I may give the advice, I confess, I rarely take it. Getting out of this anxiety rut is Hell on earth. I've called a therapist because I haven't had one in a while. Hopefully that will help. Good luck to you! If you find something that helps you, please pass the info on.
 
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