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Im a 15 year old girl looking for some advice. I've been dieting since about 12, when I relized that I was very fat at 140 pounds with average height. At first i hated myself so much i just decided to not eat anything at all after about 2 days at that, i just decided to skip a couple of meals like breakfast(which i would tell my mom i didnt have "time" to eat) and eat little lunch. Then, i started the research. I bagan a more healthy weight loss just but switching to whole grains, eating more fruits and veggies, and i even tried the special K diet.I got my weight down to around 117 starting freshman year. But then i relized that i wanted faster results and i switched to a 1000 calorie diet freshman year, i havent stopped for 2 years. I eat EXTREMELY healthy for a 15 year old along with only 1000 calories, on an avergae day im never full and always waiting for the next chance to eat, after all this time my stomach has shrunken and i run on little food but it has affected my body, im quite cold, i lost my hormones a.k.a. my period, and my metabolism is so low, Over the summer I worked out a lot and got down to 108 pounds at 5 feet 4 inches. I looked like a model and i was so happy, but now Im 120 and im pissed off that i cant keep it off while still at 1000 cal a day. I hate having to eat this little a day and i hate myself, i dont know who to tell or what to do to eat more but not get so FAT. My worst fear is getting back to my old ugly fat self that ive been running to hard from for so long. If anyone actually cared to read this i just want some advice, ive never told ANYONE this and i dont plan on doing so, its just so frustrating sometimes, what i wouldnt give just to have a grilled cheese sandwhich or penut butter and jelly again without feeling gross and guilty..... help?