I really want to do something about it; I'm guessing that it's a mental problem. I'm 15 years old and I can ONLY talk to my father, mother, and grandmother and I still stammer sometimes (sometimes, it's so bad that I just give up trying to talk and walk away).
When I was around 4 years old: I grew up without friends or siblings and I hardly had anyone to talk to. Even my mother would ignore me when I talked to her. Back then I was okay; if relatives conversed with me I wouldn't have a problem. Later on I moved to a big city. Then I started having a few school friends but, since I'm living in India, the teachers were very abusive and maybe because of that...my speech problems began; though I could still converse with anyone other than teachers.
Soon I went to a bigger school at 10 years old, and I became very quiet. I did not make any friends and I would try not to go to school every single day. I hated school very much. At my home (I live in a building) I had many friends. Those were the best years of my life and I could speak, to them, normally (even though my school life was bad).
Here's where my life started to go terrible: from a happy life with lots of friends, eating healthy good food, etc.. I moved to America, in New York, Bronx. Lets cut the long story short. I had a bad time at school, I was COMPLETELY MUTE; all my communication was done in nods. I did not adjust to the country, the food was disgustingly bland, and I was only on the computer when I wasn't in school. I skipped school once-twice every week, I BEGGED my parents to send me back to India, or at least to take me out of that school. This went on..and on until the school year ended. At this time I hated my father; he would get a violent when I didn't go to school and would break things in the house. I was very depressed. The next school year wasn't easy either; my teachers said there was a law which stated if a kid absents more than a certain amount of time...the kid would go into a foster home, away from his or her "unfit" parents. My mother finally saw how depressed I was and wanted me out of the school, but they threatened by saying that my mom and dad would go to prison. I even remember a time at school where I had to say a speech about George Washington in front of the classroom and I couldn't speak well; I said something like "Geor...George...George Washin.....Washingt..." and the whole classroom started at me; even the bloody teacher would not let me stop. I remember, that after this incident, I was so depressed that I walked home without looking if there were cars on the streets...and I nearly killed myself (I wouldn't have minded if I had died). I wouldn't talk to anyone at home and, while my mom was worried, my dad would mock and laugh at me. There were countless embarrassing events concerning my speech. Eventually, last year I stopped school and moved back to India on hope that my speech problems would go away.
I cannot converse with my old friends anymore, nor any of my relatives except for my mom, grandmother, and my dad. I do not know what to do; I just want to speak. Please help me.
When I was around 4 years old: I grew up without friends or siblings and I hardly had anyone to talk to. Even my mother would ignore me when I talked to her. Back then I was okay; if relatives conversed with me I wouldn't have a problem. Later on I moved to a big city. Then I started having a few school friends but, since I'm living in India, the teachers were very abusive and maybe because of that...my speech problems began; though I could still converse with anyone other than teachers.
Soon I went to a bigger school at 10 years old, and I became very quiet. I did not make any friends and I would try not to go to school every single day. I hated school very much. At my home (I live in a building) I had many friends. Those were the best years of my life and I could speak, to them, normally (even though my school life was bad).
Here's where my life started to go terrible: from a happy life with lots of friends, eating healthy good food, etc.. I moved to America, in New York, Bronx. Lets cut the long story short. I had a bad time at school, I was COMPLETELY MUTE; all my communication was done in nods. I did not adjust to the country, the food was disgustingly bland, and I was only on the computer when I wasn't in school. I skipped school once-twice every week, I BEGGED my parents to send me back to India, or at least to take me out of that school. This went on..and on until the school year ended. At this time I hated my father; he would get a violent when I didn't go to school and would break things in the house. I was very depressed. The next school year wasn't easy either; my teachers said there was a law which stated if a kid absents more than a certain amount of time...the kid would go into a foster home, away from his or her "unfit" parents. My mother finally saw how depressed I was and wanted me out of the school, but they threatened by saying that my mom and dad would go to prison. I even remember a time at school where I had to say a speech about George Washington in front of the classroom and I couldn't speak well; I said something like "Geor...George...George Washin.....Washingt..." and the whole classroom started at me; even the bloody teacher would not let me stop. I remember, that after this incident, I was so depressed that I walked home without looking if there were cars on the streets...and I nearly killed myself (I wouldn't have minded if I had died). I wouldn't talk to anyone at home and, while my mom was worried, my dad would mock and laugh at me. There were countless embarrassing events concerning my speech. Eventually, last year I stopped school and moved back to India on hope that my speech problems would go away.
I cannot converse with my old friends anymore, nor any of my relatives except for my mom, grandmother, and my dad. I do not know what to do; I just want to speak. Please help me.