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6:30am...day 4.....

feeling pretty good...no stomach ache. looks like the sun is gonna shine on me today. just a little weak. hungry as a horse right now. feel like goin somewhere. doin somethin.... thanks for all your support and prayers folks

thank you God.....

milksnake...
 
Hooray! Another day is nearly over and soon you'll be enjoying every minute of your days, clean and sober, rather than gutting them out the way your are today. I am so proud of you (and me!). Thank goodness for supportive spouses, too.

Hope your Mexican food was delicious and that you finally got a little nourishment!

Holly
 
Meditation helps also. It calms your mind and your body. I'm not religious and meditate solely for the calming feeling I get from it.

No special equipment or training is necessary either. Just get a blanket ( a comfortor would work well) fold it to sit on it. SIt cross legged with your back straight, and either close your eyes or keep them open, and breathe....it's that easy. Focus on your breathe and when you start to think of other things, go back to your breathe and count them. Aim for 5 mintues a time and gradually go longer if you can.

When you do this, you will feel calmer and less frantic about how you feel. When you feel ill your symptoms sometimes exagerate because you are simply not breathing.

Hope this helps! Have a good day!
 
"I'm super proud of you and grateful for your "company" over these past days."

as i am of you holly.....thanks!
 
GLAD TO HEAR YOUR DOING BETTER MILKSNAKE. TIME ITS A BIG WORD THANX FOR YOUR SUPPORT ALSO :) IAM A STUDENT. AN ALL THAT I HAVE TALKED WITH ARE MY TEACHERS:angel:
 
holly...... i had heard that about the midol before and i know a few dudes that swore by it when they were hurtin. thanks for the reminder, might end up gettin some.
 
Something reachout said reminded me of a passage I read that's been very helpful for me. I'm paraphrasing here, but the idea is that YOU ARE CHOOSING DISCOMFORT NOW. It is a conscious decision you're making, to feel uncomfortable, to hurt, to be agitated, etc. That's an amazing decision! You are taking back control, you are choosing something other than instant gratification, and THAT is amazing. In an odd way, I have to remind myself to be grateful for this difficult period, to accept that I'm choosing to put myself through this because I'm making the choice to no longer be weak. And that instant gratification part is key, too. We addicts are takers, even if it's just in the sense of the high. Normal everyday people don't feel elation on a daily basis! We have borrowed against that for a long time now! So in a way, we have a debt to repay, which, as we've all experienced, is no fun. But soon enough - maybe a day, a week, a month from now - we'll be even. And then our lives are ours again. Can you imagine? It is so close!

You are in my thoughts today, big time! Let's kick the crap out of this thing.

Holly
 
Hey mate...you sound so good!!! I am thrilled that its going so much better this time around. funny how this works,huh? Im hoping that you slept well....glad you managed to eat (mmmm...Mexican!). Post later to let us\know how your doing.
love CC
 
10:09am......... wasnt really hungry but forced down a bowl of cherrios with fresh strawberries. had the strawberries for color, cause if i was to throw up, at least it would be colorful. anyway, went outside and sat in the sun and tried a little of that meditation. seems to work a little i guess. my stomach isn't bugging me as bad. i'm gettin to the pissed off section of these withdrawals i think. gettin grouchy when i hurt. time wise, it will be 72 hrs without opiates at 3pm today. according to the experts, thats when its ALL outta your system. what thats supposed to mean is beyond me but it is what it is. still weak and dont have any desire to do nothing. however, there are moments...sometimes lasting 15-20 min. when i'm feeling pretty darn good....then, pow! hits me again. i think what i miss right now is being sleepy. ya know when ya go to bed and your REAL sleepy....then it feels really good to go to sleep........i aint had that feeling in the past 3 nights...its just lay down, close my eyes and hope for the best.....
guess i'll post later.....
 
wow holly...i never looked at it like that. thank you....

its almost 11am now and the only thing buggin me now is STILL my stomach. comes and goes. tried to eat....couldn't do it. just drinking water and juices.
 
Hang in there bud --you have the will and a loved one to help! that is key

Go for it.

Waiting on the other side

D
 
8:20am...... ate and showered down.... i believe i'm where 5years is.... a few jitters here and there...no big deal. just goes to show you folks who are getting ready to go c/t, or quit however your gonna quit. there WILL come a time you'll feel good WITHOUT opiates...... THAT, you can take to the bank...... uh, well, now days, maybe not some banks... but you know what i mean.

i remeraber the great feeling opiates give..........just one thing wrong with it, it aint real........... as i sit here typing, i don't feel the "warm glow" that opiates puts in your stomach. i feel naturally good. and folks, when you can feel just good, doesn't have to be great yet, just good, without a pill, well thats real...it won't go away in a few hrs.
i find myself sitting here laughing...why? i feel good...not great mind you, good, and i'm tickled to death its real. i can go somewhere and not have to worry about this feeling wearing off......amazing.
 
Hey Bud,

Just wanted to say hi quick. Work has kept me from posting and reading like my normal self... I just wanted you to know I am SOOOOOOOOOOo proud of you and I think you are doing a great job.

Keep on with your bad self!
 
Last dose was yesterday afternoon. Around 6 or 7 pm yesterday evening I started feeling a little bad. Slight stomach ache and weakness all over. At around 9pm I took a Levsin and a couple Ateril and went to bed. Woke up around 2am sweating, stomach worse. Took another Levsin and one Ateril. Was able to fall back asleep until 9am this morning. Not a bad night. Right now, I took a Levsin, and made some coffee. I'm getting a little warm, starting to sweat a little and feel weak...not real weak, just enough to where I don't want to do nothing. I got a slight headache. My whole body feels heavy, like it's hard to even get up. No interest in anything, or anybody. The hardest thing I'm having to do right now is settle with the idea there is no more dope, and I'm not going to take it ever again. Make no mistake about it folks, the psyco part of all this is just as rough as the physical part, maybe a bit worse. I know I'm gonna get worse as the days go by....I've been here before. Day 3 and 4 were the worse. However, I have a complete different attitude this time around and I can tell already this will help. I'm 52 years old, It's time I get off this stuff and carry on with my life with my beautiful wife, who is AGAIN, right beside me on this one, just like she was on the other time. Well, I'm gonna go force myself to get on my exerciser and do at least a few minutes on it. I'll try to get back and post later on.........
 
6:45am...day 3

slept ok last night....only a couple sweat attacks......stomach ok this morning, not perfect tho. still don't feel like doing anything...food went down ok yesterday...not hungry again today. ???? sheesh... ya just never know.

maybe a little depression tyring to mess with me? could be..
 
hi milksnake hope all is well day 2 not to bad im glad i stoped when i did . read my thread . can i identify with thinking about them the addict in me says .why did you throw those twenty pills away . you could have took them for another 10 days . cunning baffling powerful wow . have you been to any meetings yet . :wave:
 
Milksnake,

You made me laugh so hard about the whole smoking thing and then hakking and then almost crashing!! I mean I am glad you didn't crash but too funny!

I am so freaking proud of you!!!!!!!!!! You have done so great!!!! No looking back now and I was so proud to see you write that!!!!

You keep kicking this addictions BUTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so proud of you, should I keep saying it???? BECUASE I AM!!!!
XOXOOX
 
6:21pm........ well. aint much change. up'ed the dose on the Levsin..figure if 1 works ok, 3 will work better....it did.

just weak and feeling like general sh**.
 
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