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leolion
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So I am coming clean for the past 5 or 6 yrs I have been taking 2-3 hydrocondone or Oxycodone 5/325 daily (4-5 on the weekenRAB). my husband gets 100/month and I usallly polish off more then half. Plus I get some for my headaches.
I have always been addicted to something when i was a teen I was a total pot head then when I was 21 I hooked up with a sugar daddy who had a lot of cocaine passing threw the house and a lot of it ended up my nose. For 1 year I did coke 6 days a week with 1 down day. With occasional crystal meth. He ended up shooting up a lot and I got out while I could, he is now backrupt, lost his company and is living on the street. From there I quit cold turkey (no problem)but, I replaced it with efferdrine & pot. then from there I went to pain killers, quit the pot cause of kiRAB and random drug tests at work. I am lucky for 1 thing...alcohol has never been my drug of choice.
I wont admit this to anyone else (drs) I beat coke, pot, ciggeretts so I know I can beat this. I dont know how to be stone cold sober. I haven't done that 18yrs.
I have a very physical construction job and am sore a lot and thats the excuse I have been telling myself. But honestly I take them when I am not in pain cause i like the boost of energy (makes me super woman).
Anyway I have started wellbutrin 2 weeks ago and the first pill was amazing. I kept thinking, I cant believe this is legal!! Total upper, I was so buzzed...on a legal anti depressant....cant get better then that. lol
So in the past 2 weeks i find myself popping a pain pills out of habbit, funny enough I cant even feel the pain pill work. So then it dawned on me that I was wasting them by taking them and not feeling them. My want to take them has dissolved (SHOCKER!) so my plan is to taper down so I don't go into withdrawls by doing 2/day for a week then 1/day a week then 1 everyother day.
My mom took pain pills and drank she died at 57 from a blood disease but we all knew if she wasn't drugged up all the time she would have been able to feel the changes in her body and act sooner, and still be here to love her grandkiRAB!
I dont want to be my mom, I dont want my kiRAB to go threw loosing their mommy like I did. It really sucks!
I have always been addicted to something when i was a teen I was a total pot head then when I was 21 I hooked up with a sugar daddy who had a lot of cocaine passing threw the house and a lot of it ended up my nose. For 1 year I did coke 6 days a week with 1 down day. With occasional crystal meth. He ended up shooting up a lot and I got out while I could, he is now backrupt, lost his company and is living on the street. From there I quit cold turkey (no problem)but, I replaced it with efferdrine & pot. then from there I went to pain killers, quit the pot cause of kiRAB and random drug tests at work. I am lucky for 1 thing...alcohol has never been my drug of choice.
I wont admit this to anyone else (drs) I beat coke, pot, ciggeretts so I know I can beat this. I dont know how to be stone cold sober. I haven't done that 18yrs.
I have a very physical construction job and am sore a lot and thats the excuse I have been telling myself. But honestly I take them when I am not in pain cause i like the boost of energy (makes me super woman).
Anyway I have started wellbutrin 2 weeks ago and the first pill was amazing. I kept thinking, I cant believe this is legal!! Total upper, I was so buzzed...on a legal anti depressant....cant get better then that. lol
So in the past 2 weeks i find myself popping a pain pills out of habbit, funny enough I cant even feel the pain pill work. So then it dawned on me that I was wasting them by taking them and not feeling them. My want to take them has dissolved (SHOCKER!) so my plan is to taper down so I don't go into withdrawls by doing 2/day for a week then 1/day a week then 1 everyother day.
My mom took pain pills and drank she died at 57 from a blood disease but we all knew if she wasn't drugged up all the time she would have been able to feel the changes in her body and act sooner, and still be here to love her grandkiRAB!
I dont want to be my mom, I dont want my kiRAB to go threw loosing their mommy like I did. It really sucks!