Hi there,
I see that you are trying to dose yourself down from the pain meRAB on your own, which is completely admirable! But sometimes, people just need to ask for help. If you find that you continue to slip, and can not do it by yourself, there is a wonderful helper out there, called suboxone. Not sure if you've heard of it before or not, but I'll try to give you a run down of my story and what I know about it etc. My husband was a pain pill addict for the past 8 years. Took between 60 and 100 5mg vics, percs a day. Basically whatever he could get his hand on in a day, he took. Morphine, duragesic patches, oxys, whatever. It spiraled totally out of control, over 200 dollars a day, lying stealing, destroying his body, red flagged at hospitals etc. etc. I should add, that his addiction originally stemmed from his chronic pain that resulted in his 15 years of rodeo. He's had six surgeries this year alone (three of them back surgeries for herniated discs) so he really did need the pain meRAB for CHRONIC PAIN. But his tolerance was so high, no doc could legally prescribe the amount of narcotics that helped his pain. Finally, I sturabled upon suboxone while resarching methadone clinics in my area. Suboxone has been used in Europe for over ten years, but was just approved by the FDA in the US in 2002. It is used to help those with opiate addiciton return to their normal lives. Not only this, but it also helps with pain! In many people's cases, they are started off with higher doses of suboxone, and then dosed down gradually to relieve their addiciton. However in cases like my husbanRAB, he will likely be on suboxone for several years, if not forever, simply because of his chronic pain. His doc. is a huge advocate of suboxone, not only to help people with opiate addicition, but also for those with chroinc pain. Every time we go to an appointment, he says how he thinks suboxone will be the main pain med used for those with chronic pain in the next ten years. Suboxone does not have a eurphoric high effect, therefore there is no 'chasing the buzz' effect. Suboxone levels out all of the systems in your body, it's just like pressing the reset button on your body. It is amazing!! No ups and downs like regular narcotics, no highs and lows and chasing and dope sickness etc etc. Just normal, regular happy life. It truly is amazing. I have tried to include most everything I know about it from my own little bit of research, plus personal experience, and I hope it helps. I know this may not be the route you choose to take, and if you are able to get off these meRAB on your own, congradulations! < edited > It really is a miracle, and BELIEVE ME, oxycodone addiction is not the road you want to continue to go down, it is truly a living hell, as I'm sure you know. Good luck! And please let me know if there are any questions you think I might be able to anwser for you!