omg here I am again

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hi all..back in 04 i got off methadone with the help of these boarRAB. never did i think I would end up here again..what a loser..quitting that was a nightmare so why a year ago I started taking lortab is beyond me..today at 6pm will be exactly 12 days since my last pill. I went out of state this time for the first week off so my kiRAB woud not see me sick..I remerabered the flipping like a fish outta water, and didnt want them to see that again. I no onger have a supporting husband so had to leave my 3 boys alone..ages 21-15-10..I came home to a house that looks like they partied all week..the mess is undescribable and is still that way as I have not a lick of energy..I have 1 pill i just found and if I took it to clean this house would it take me back to day one in withdrawals..I just know if i could get it all clean that i could do a ittle everyday after that to keep it up but i feel depressed as it is and looking around my messy house is making it worse...
 
Congratulations on your detox!!! It's great to hear about people that have made it. Remeraber to start doing things to increase your endorphions (things that make you feel good inside) to help your body start producing them again. Hey, when the cat's away the kiRAB will play! Keeping your mind busy on cleaning up will help as well. :-) Depression is normal after detoxing. Consider talking to your doctor about an anti-depressant for a little while to help get over the feeling. Thanks for sharing your story.
 
Thanks your reply...saying to get up and moving is so much easier said then done..Do you know that if I take this last pill will my withdrawals go back to day 1...i have no access to anymore..
 
Flush the pill - it will only tempt you. Don't go back to Day 1. Do it for your family or the kiRAB will have another party!! :-)

Yes, getting up and doing it is hard, but you have to let your mind control your body. You have to tell yourself that you are in control. Just do a little today and a little more tomorrow and before you know it, you'll be done and you will feel better.

Funny... I was on the way back from the PM today, turned on my favorite rock-n-roll station and the DJ was talking about how to dispose of Oxycodone pills. I couldn't believe my ears. Crush them up and dilute them in water and add flour - duck tape them inside of a butter container and throw it away - flush them down the toilet - mix them in used cat litter and throw out. Yikes! All of the ideas he had and it was as if he was talking directly to me. What are the chances???
 
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