Old Jobs and New Tattoos

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So court went a little different than a figured, got a 10 day stay (just a little shorter than I was expecting). I got out yesterday and was picked up by my old neighbor/pot dealer(Bad idea but a ride is a ride), and the first words out of his mouth "I'll front you a kilo, for 10gs. you'll have 3 weeks to pay me back... its some ATF.
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You interested?" WTF am I supposed to say to that?!? That a fuckton of great pot for dirt, But I don't want to get back into that trade, but that's allot of money(minimum 5k profit...who couldn't use that, and god knows it would only take my a week or so). I ended up telling him I had to think about it...so much for staying away from drugs...

He drops me off at Jess's (my tattoo artists) house, I plugged my phone in to charge and started getting inked up. Half way through the Pink Floyd hammers tattoo(1 of 4 tattoos that got done) I get a call from that bitch my ex. She asks my how I was doing and where I was, when i told her what i was doing she asked if I would get a tattoo for her. Depending on what it was I said sure. She said she wanted me to get a heart with her initials in it under the sickle of the grim reaper on my left forearm(same as my avatar btw)...I simply responded fuck no and she started crying called me an asshole and hung up the phone...did I miss something? Jess took me back to my place after we finished up after a long 7hrs and I waited for my buddy to get back with my car he stole while i was locked up and I went for a "drive".

On the drive(that ended being a lap around IL) earlier today around 11am my old boss called me and offered me my job back with a dollar pay raise, and better hours...Good offer but idk, really don't want to go back but I'll run out of cash soon and the job market is a shithole.

I'm currently sitting in a small dirty motel room (zoning out to some metal) in Coal Valley, IL aka butt fuck nowhere...and wondering why the fuck I'm not taking these offers?, Am I strong enough to take them with out just going back to square one?,Why am I so scared of who I was/who I am?, And WTF is up with my ex?

Short version: Offered allot of pot for cheap. Ex is... I have no fucking clue. Just got some new tattoos. Old boss offered me my job back. I'm confused and in butt fuck nowhere.
 
1--You just got out of rehab and are not ready to handle that business. You know that, too, or else you would have jumped on the deal. Also, any deal that sounds to good to be true smells like NARC to me.
2--Your ex is an idiot, ignore her and move on.
3--Is it a good job and worth it? Then take it. Otherwise you can't pay your probie fees and go back in anyways.
 
I'm assuming the tats were free, because if not that's pretty retarded.

Ditch the ex and don't mess with the weed.

In general, you're an idiot. Stop being an idiot. Focus on the long term rather than the instant gratification you're use to; Find some straight work and get into college, trade school or an intern/apprenticeship. You ought to be looking to create a life for yourself, not simply get by financially.
 
You get out of jail, an immediately there's a fork in the road. One is an invitation back into a way of surviving that you already know how it will turn out. The other is a much more mundane routine, and I'm guessing that the thought of doing it day in and day out probably bored you to tears. No wonder you're not jumping in unadulterated bliss.

But, as you said, the economy is in the tanker, there is a healthy raise, and your boss I'd wager would be more reliable as someone you know than a lot of the others. Routine can be a real pain, but there is a sense of pride that comes from being consistent in plowing a field over time. Things can last a lot longer. Plus, who knows where the job will take you? More opportunities to change the direction of your life are available when already at a job. The rewards aren't as immediate, but they are a shitload less dangerous and not nearly as risky.

The ex sounds nuts. You didn't miss anything. Sounds like she'd require your heart and balls on a plate at some point.
 
I suggest you follow your typical modus operandi.

Fuck the job, it's not worth it.

Get the smoke, and get popped somewhere down the road for manufacture with intent to deliver.

Come back here in 5-10 and bitch about the unfair justice system.

Wash, rinse, repeat.

Dude, you're a fuck-up... plain and simple....and ya, I realize this isnt B&T, just telling it like it is. If you just get out of jail (second time, methinks since you've joined this board), and need to come in here and ask for advice on whether you should start dealing smoke, or get a fucking job...then you sir, are defo a fuck up.

Get your fucking shit together. Simple as that.

Edit: Screw the wench too, sounds like a nutcase.
 
Did you say he's fronting you a KILO of bud? Maybe I misunderstood, but if this is true...

A kilogram is over 2 pounds.

You would have to sell 2 ounces a day, everyday, for the next 3 weeks to pay him off.

Not only do you have a high chance of getting busted, but if you DO get busted, you owe your buddy GOD knows how much money.
 
So... let me get this straight. You JUST got out of jail and you're seriously considering selling drugs? Are you stupid? Even if it's not a set up, as someone above suggested, it still has "BAD IDEA" written all over it.

Your ex is an emotional drain. Don't worry about her. You were right to say no. Who wants some ex's initials branded on them for life? Certainly not me.

The job, I say take it until something better, and needless to say non-drug related, comes along. Someone who is already employed looks much better to a hiring manager than someone who's been out of work. I say take a job, even a shitty one, until you can hit paydirt. Especially since you now have a record attached to your name.
 
I think everyone has said it well here. You were on here recently saying how you wanted to change. If you go back to the drugs, you will hate yourself and go back down that path. The more you feel shitty about yourself, the less likely you are going to get out of this hellish loop. I know it's tempting, but seriously, just stop. Dont' do it! Hell get a tattoo every time you feel the urge to do and or sell drugs. That's a lot of ink, but it's a good distraction. Or find a different, healthier hobby to take your time when you are tempted to do/sell drugs. Much better way to go.

I do agree. The ex is insecure and looking for attention. Move on and don't worry about her. You'll find someone else that maybe isn't quite so clingy and needy.

The job offer is definitely a good idea. It may not be your favorite job, but you need it to live. You can also go looking for a different job while you take this one. You'll at least be making some money in the meantime. Your boss sounds like he's understanding considering he offered you a pay raise after all this. I suggest you take it...at last as a starting point. It's also a step in the right direction which you, yourself, wanted to try before.
 
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