Non~Hodgins Lymphoma??, Hernia Postherniopathy??? Psychosis?? what is it???

Yesterday morning started getting severe stabbing pains in the area that I had a hernia repair. I tried relaxing thinking the pain was likely the direct result of going through opiate withdrawal, another infuriatinh situation alone: Notwithstanding the fact my pain been stable snd or increasing, ivs been taking opioids since May 1 and have been tally cut off even though ibe explained as best I can all the things I've endured these last months. After logically thinking throigh potential scenarios, and feeling/hearing a couple of snaps, I made the decision and called 911 the firemen did their best at dissuading me from an ambulance ride. Making me feel like I was making stuff up; after all 2 of them had the same procedure, and were climbing everest and running centuries the follwing week. The amunt of dissbeleif surrounding my reports of pain is truly depressing I'm not sure why, but NO ONE beleives me any more.

At the hospital, tried to force me to take pain meds, but, even tho i was in crazy pain broken with short spurts of shooting "zingers" all around the surgery area causing me to spasm or jerk and feel simulataneously fain, dizzy, nauseated I made sure to CLEARLY refuse more than once, the firemen had already tried to not attend to me by saying opiate withdrawal, as did the doctor anyway, she said, "....well if that is the case, then we have a problem" Whatever, if I want, I know EXACTLY where to go for recreational subsances. I was there for ansers, and made sure to bring a friend to ensure that happened.

I was given a catscan with contrast, and a my
requested aked that image incude the entre scrotum, curriously something not specified in the instruction. After the films were run I was visably upset so when being brought back to the ER, the tech made apoint to "not tell me.about it looked to him that I was there for surgical complications?" I said "that's what I think, but I've had a few of these done since surgery, and nothing is ever found" he looked at with a geniuwnlly shocked expression, said something else I vant remember and assured me that I would definately be taken care of there.

The.short story is that I was only suffer in from "Narcotic Addiction", "benign prostatic hypertrophy" and "aboniminal pain" all of which was considered to be non~emergent. Unless, of course, everything i went in for ocurs again, and certainly it will as it has been weekly.
 
Now you know why I don't go to an ER unless I think I'm dying...and even then I wonder if I should. They missed a stroke I had last January and 3 years ago, 2 different ER's missed that I had broken 3 vertebrae in my neck.

Keep that urologist appointment and try to be as calm and well behaved as possible so they don't think you're a kook. Like it or not, docs do stereotype people. And you have been pegged as a having a drug problem. Gotta break the stereotype to get help.

Good luck and keep in touch.................Jenny
 
That's exactly what caused the breakdown of my family relationships: I did have a problem with substances (more as a result of depression: I had been successfuly confronting and working through both issues) .

However, after my injury, and being refused help by family members who have means (inconceivably stressfull when that happens) ive been in a steep spiral downwards, relapsing on both, watching a stable foundation crumble around me.

You are right about the stereotyping FOR SURE!!! I knew that entering my HMO's Substance Abuse Recovery Program was a bad idea, but others said it was top notch and I would have a life of my dreams, I was assured by the program staff of total confidentiallity (including a totally idependant computer record keeping system and building) How was I to know that the entire HMO medical staff could see appointments with other medical staff, and know indirectly making the "Confidential" policy just a whimsical fantasy (not to mention the fact that a condition for continued participation is complete disclosure to everyone anyway)....... My medical care for the 30 years before the program was terriffic~ now its just a big pile of horse maure.

I knew telling my family was a bad idea~especially disclosing the.nature of my troubles to 74 year old retired high school teaacher mother who may have had 10 alcoholic drinks in her entire life. She hasn't been a vey good mother (resentfull of the lives her daughter's were leeading: Successfull career oriented professionals. My father and i receipients of those latent feelings: Men are chiefly to blame for being "forced" into a life of stereotypes), She has, ..... in point of fact,..... done the best she knows. Never a comforting caring woman, but always doing her best: Now that she "knows" she will not talk to me at all. She even refused to drive me to and pick me up from my hernia surgery. That alanon group of which she is now an active member, has her convinced, that I will rape her, steal all her valuables, take the deed to her house, kill her favorite house plant..... well you get the picture.

If any MD is reading this, why in the hell should I tell you that I've been a "friend of Bill" when you wil automatically assume that my stories of pain, sickness and or depression are always my ploy to get some form of mind altering medicine. Its possible that this defenssive mind set has clouded my medical team's assesment of my condition, and missed diagnosing the symptoms of a serious life threatening disease?

If a patient comes to you 45 or more times complaining of the same potentially lethal troubles....... I think its time to listen an take action, regardless of their history.
 
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