No more synthetic energy, help!?

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Hi,
ive been a bartender for 4 years, been drinking for straight 3 of them.Ive been a naturally deppressed person since i was a kid, when i went to go get help for deppression they wouldnt help me unless i detoxed, and there i first realized what i really was doing to myself, now im detoxing and still deppressed, When i first started,i experimenting with percocet and vics, then i found myself doing up to 10 roxycoton a day just to feel normal, considering ive been only doing the opiates for about 8 months.In the last six months i went from few percs a day to 300 mg of oxy, doing blow both ways, taking xanax, drinking all at once! Septeraber 9 th 2009 i went clean off everthing, cold turkey, now its been a week! first three days was the worst now im out of modivation and energy to do anything! Can someone explain to me if the hard part is over yet or is it just starting? and how to get my modivation back that i had when i was opiate free! now im detoxing and still deppressed,i think that my immune system might have been stronger than most people considering my best friend had to be tied to a table when he got off everthing. Any help would help, plese>>'
Thanx
 
Wow Atlien404!! Good for you stopping going down that spiral of drugs and alcohol! Going CT from the levels that you were at may take a while, and I'd love to tell you that the worse is over, but you probably will continue to have w/d's for another week. Depending on the person, how much they were taking and for how long, the initial stage lasts 5-10 days, but some have had less sever w/d's, while other take much longer. The best news is that you decided to stop and you are on your way to recovery.

Opiate withdrawals can present themselves in all sorts of different forms, detox depression is one. I suggest that you talk to a physician or a psychiatrist and be honest that you are trying to stop and need some assistance. If they judge you - find another doctor! They are suppose to be there to help. It is possible that you need something for your depression and if your depression is reduced, you'll see that your motivation returns.

I took Cyrabolta from time-to-time during my bout on opiates and during detox which seemed to help me. I took it mostly for nerve pain, but I noticed a drastic improvement in motivation along with decreased depression. I don't feel depressed now and my motivation remains fairly high, even off of the drug.

You should be proud of yourself!! Not many people have accomplished what you have and that means you have the drive in you to get things done. Staying busy is a good way to get over the depression and increase your motivation. I know it sounRAB hard, but you just have to tell yourself you are going to do it. Start out slow, since you are still experiencing withdrawals, and don't expect anything to happen overnight. You have a LONG way ahead of you just to get clean and then to stay that way. Good Luck and let us know how you are doing.
 
Thnx for your reply, it actually kinda made me smile for a minute. Let me hit you with another one. Is there also sexual side effects of the opiates that i was on, i feel like they nurabed my body and my soul, everyday that passes that i realize how things are so different when you are sober. I feel like im a strong male, im trying to figure out is it me or the drugs that made me stop having relations with my loved girlfriend!
thanx again!
 
If I had a big buzzer or gong you would hear it right now!! It's the opiates! When I was on the opiates I felt like nothing was wrong - that I was normal... UNTIL I got off of them!! I'm so thankful for having a loving and caring wife who stood by me, but I put her through hell. She was happier than me when I got off of them and mentioned how much my mood and attitude changed. I had noticed some changes, but not as much as she did, as well as my son. You need to step outside of the shell you are in and look at yourself with drug/alcohol free eyes and maybe then you will see the difference. Opiates stop the body from making endorphins and it replaces them. You need to start repairing the endorphin pumps in your body and get them turned back on again, which will make you feel better inside and that will relate to treating and caring about other people. You've had a major revelation - think about it!! I think I know your answer... :-) You still have a long way to go and we're here to help guide you. Good Luck!
 
Thanx for your replies btw.

im on day 8 and i feel restless, my joints and my bones are aching more than ever, even more then the second and third days.

Ive had this chemical taste in my mouth for couple days, it just takes so much out of me to just get out of bed and make breakfast, my skin is itching, jaw is popping and i feel like im coming freshly off of coke. My legs and feet cant stop moving. it feels like my body waited 9 days to get all of the chemicals out of my body. i keep thinking its all in my head, however, the pain proves me wrong.
Myurges to do oxys have greatly increased, i keep thinking i know whats going to make me feel better, i get out of bed restlessly to get rid of the thoughts and i find myself on this website.

im determined to stay clean, i just need to know if these symptoms are normal or is it from laying around waiting to feel better. im 25 years old and i know i shouldnt feel like i have arthiritis, and i know i just didnt get hit by a bus.........

What a weird experiance!
Thanx D!
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Hi At, yes, everything you're experiencing is normal. I said almost the same exact things -- felt like I was 100 with arthritis, felt like a bus ran over me, etc. I can't tell you when exactly it will get better -- it varies based on so many different factors. Your age and the fact you've only been abusing for 8 months is in your favor. What's not in your favor is that you were taking a high dosage. However, it WILL get better, I promise. Many people here recommend exercise. I personally could barely walk, much less exercise, and really didn't feel better when I did manage to exercise. However, if you can, maybe try to get out and walk a bit. Please don't give in to that temptation to take something to "feel better". You've done so much hard work! Remeraber what brought you here, and just keep going forward. We're here for you....please keep us posted.
 
I've read this thread to learn more about *you*, and in it found support for myself.

At this point in my recovery/non-recovery, I probably shouldn't be giving anyone any advice, so I just want to encourage you to stay the course. You *can* do this. For me, it was a minute by minute process. There was no way I could even think about day-to-day.

You're so young and are clearly looking for insight, which is, I think, one of the earliest steps in recovery.

Trust me, there is no joy in relapse. There's a lot of remorse and the fact that detox and WD is inevitably going to have to be endured again is part of the agony of slipping.

The cravings are wretched, and for me came in frequent waves, but they definitely did become farther and farther apart, and even less intense. I don't know how long they take to pass into just a bitter memory because regretfully I didn't make it past 30 days clean. As others have written, we all are different. We're just alike in the fact that all of us here are addicted and are trying to save ourselves from falling completely into the abyss.

I suggest you keep coming back here, and maybe get some good medical help--as others have suggested--for the depression. Also, I think you're fortunate to have girlfriend. I think if you include her in your journey she can be a great blessing.
 
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