no help

[tulum]

I cannot believe that in this HUGE world there is nothing or no one who can help me feel better.

The saddest thing is that I am the only one that can help myself and well that is IMPOSSIBLE. I cannot help myself. I cannot overcome my fears of dying and illness and depression about aging.

My EVIL husband took away my entire life from me. The only way I will feel better is if I can go back in time, never get old and never die and all of that is of course impossible.

I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOO jealous of other people who are living "normal" lives with normal depression and normal anxiety levels and who have their lives going relatively smoothly.

Therapy and medication are a joke. Nothing works. Yoga just makes me tired and achy.

I want brain surgery or something to completely ALTER the way I think. It is all about the way I think. And I don't have it in me to do it myself with hard work blah blah blah.

I hate myself and my life.

 

[rudiraven]

I am sorry you feel so unhappy. You are right.....you are the only one who can help yourself. There is no therapy, medication or surgery that will help you unless you help yourself and choose to get well. Blaming others and circumstances just keep you stuck in a "rut" of self pity. What is.....is, and you just have to try to move forward. There are self-help groups and many organizations that will help you, if you ask and truly want to help yourself. I wish you well :angel:

 

[plasva]

Hello,
You still have plenty of living ahead of you, and I KNOW you can find peace and happiness.

What are the things that make you happy for even a moment? For example, when you are walking down the street, and a friendly dog comes up to you to say "hi," does that make you happier, at least for a few minutes? If so, consider going to the animal shelter and adopting a pet. Or for example, when you're sitting in a coffee shop drinking a cappuccino and reading a new magazine, do you feel at peace? If so, make that your Sunday morning ritual.

Don't feel like you keep having to give and give to obligations and others. GIVE TO YOURSELF, whatever you want, whatever it is, and tell yourself you deserve it. You want to "sleep in" on the weekenRAB? Do it! Go to the spa every month? Do it! Adopt a kitten? Do it! Do what YOU want, and don't let yourself feel any guilt about it.

Every day, say to yourself that you're open to forgiving your husband, because you won't be at peace until you do. (Work on that for yourself, not for him.)

Finally, I think you could try those workbooks they sell in the self-help section of bookstores. Do like one section each weekend. Keep at it in small steps, so it won't be overwhelming, and so that you'll feel like you CAN put in the work, little by little.

Do you feel any of this advice might help you?