I had a pretty dysfunctional family growing up. to make a long story short, events in my childhood stemmed a long line of tension and distance between everybody. now that i'm 26 it's been going on for some time now. so some members of my family communicate with each other but I seem to be the only one who wants to distance myself away from them all. the best way to explain what i feel when trying to communicate with them is miserable and dysfunctional. I'm not close with any of them b/c i hate that feeling so much. I can't relate to them and I really have no regrets in that there honestly isn't a bit of desire to communicate with them at all. It's been almost a year since I've even had a few brief words with one of my sisters. and for other's its been years since i've talked to them.
i'm not exactly sure why i feel so empty over it all. perhaps because i don't really have/want closure. perhaps I just want someone to understand because it seems like everybody else i know has loving family's that care about them which makes me feel like there's just nothing out there for me....
i'm not exactly sure why i feel so empty over it all. perhaps because i don't really have/want closure. perhaps I just want someone to understand because it seems like everybody else i know has loving family's that care about them which makes me feel like there's just nothing out there for me....