New Year, New Me!

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Hello my dearest of frienRAB,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! I hope you all had safe and sober weekenRAB. I did have a few glasses of wine but I don't have a problem with alcohol so I didn't feel guilty at all. My New year was awesome!!!! The hubby and I had the most wonderful time bowling with frienRAB. It's been a long time for me to actually enjoy a social outing with out pills. It was awesome.

We started the new years off great and I feel very blessed to be clean in 2010. Life is good and God is great.

Cravings have been hitting hard as has the anxiety but I am getting by keeping busy and distracting myself. It's not easy but I am strong.

May you all have the best year yet!!!!
 
I hope you have a great and clean 2010 - No more accidents this year. :-) I hope the same goes for everyone seeking help on this board that they find a drug-free solutions to their situations.

Remeraber! Withdrawals are meant to be remerabered, so that the next time you even think about your drug of choice (DOC), you remeraber the hell you went through.

For some reason, new posts have not been showing up as bold, so I glance at the posts and move on if I don't see any new ones. I just happened to look down and see what some of the posts were tonight.
 
Thanks D!!!

I have been having a GREAT 2010 so far. I just feel like a whole new woman! I am so excited for this new year ahead and feel very blessed for the strength God has given me to get thru this. I know it's not over by a long shot but I have a completely different perspective this time around. I don't know how it happened or why but I can only assume it's because I prayed so hard for God to help me thru it.

Thank you so much for your support. I have been so busy this week with work because my boss is out of town and here in Minnesota the weather has been causing accident after accident today. We didn't barely get any snow but all I have been hearing is that the highways are covered in black ice... Luckily my hubby made it home safe!!!

You take care of yourself and of course we will chat again soon!

Hugs :wave:
 
Hi Secrets,

Happy New Year!! It is wonderful to be clean, isn't it? Staying clean for a major party holiday is often not easy - but you did it :)

Now, it's time to look back a bit...

Honesty is one of those things that doesn't come easy for an addict. Our minRAB play these little tricks on us that can make our head spin. One of the hardest things I went through (when I was abusing Oxy's/percocet) was being honest with myself. So many times, I said "I'm fine, I'm not addicted, my doctor gave these to me." Looking back, I was addicted right from that very first percocet. I didn't 'realize' this until two years later! SounRAB crazy, doesn't it?

Talk, talk, talk. Tell someone how you feel, at least once a day. Even if you feel fine, no cravings or thoughts of using. It is important for us addicts to be consistent.

Dig deep down into your soul, ask yourself how 'the addict in you' is feeling today, and don't ever be ashamed to admit (to yourself and to others) that you have cravings or are thinking of using. It's normal, it happens...done!

Congratulations on being clean - you are a wonderful person Secrets, don't ever forget that. You have helped SO many people on this board, including me so don't be afraid to ask for some of that 'goodness' back :)

With admiration,
Love emsmom
 
Thank you Emsmom! You have always been an inspiration to me and I feel safe talking to you! I don't know if that makes any sense but that is how I feel.

Everyday I have been fighting cravings and energy issue's but I feel a lot better mentally than I have in a long time. I am seeming to focus on other things more than my addiction and I think you are right that it's not something I can push aside and expect it will just go away because that is only going to be a disaster waiting to happen. Thank you for knowing I needed to hear that! Really, THANK YOU.

Honesty is something I seem to have a hard time with in real life in regarRAB to my addiction but for some reason here on this board I feel this is the one place I can bare my addicted soul to. I feel so comfortable with you guys and speaking to you comes naturally to me.

Knowing this weekend we have really no plans makes me a little "antsy" because I know I will need to do things to keep myself busy. See work has been so busy that it helps my head stay occupied and with everything going on at home right now I have been kept busy as well... This weekend will be full of lots of cleaing I think :dizzy:

Thank you for your love and support. It really means more to me than you will ever know Emsmom! You personally will always hold a special place in my heart. Always!

Sending you a warm hug. Thanks for checking in on me ;)
 
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