Hey again Philly!
kewood here....I noticed on the other thread that you were concerned about anxiety/panic attacks if you take the sub. I've had no problem at all with any anxiety or panic compared to 4 years ago when I detoxed off of hydro and ativan at an inpatient center...my god I was a wreck! And, this is coming from someone who has PTSD and Panic Disorder so I know very well the horror of mind nurabing panic. My doc gave me some ativan about 2 months ago for breakthrough anxiety. I was having a little bit of anxiety but I knew it was all about realizing I wasn't going to be able to get my drugs off the internet anymore and that I was going to have to come clean. So far, in two months, I've only taken one of the Ativan. I've had no desire to use it recreationally and haven't needed it for anxiety/panic except for once.
So, tomorrow evening I have another appt. with my sub doc/psychiatrist and it will be exactly 2 weeks that I've been on the 16mg suboxone daily (8mg twice a day). I have lots of questions for him like: how do I know what the "right" dose is for me, how do you know how long someone neeRAB to be on it, will he start tapering me down tomorrow or when does that happen...just general stuff. But, all in all, I have felt really quite good on the sub. I have had some dull headaches and nausea along with very dry mouth & eyes, I have to take my contacts out every few days to give my eyes a rest now. After the 1st week, the nausea and headaches have gone away. Like I said I'm experiencing NO anxiety. I do have a bit of depression but I know it's not the drug. I say that because I also suffer from major depressive disorder so I know when I'm having a "real" bout of depression. This feeling is all because "they took my drugs away!", actually, I decided to stop but sometimes I feel like a spoiled little brat because I WANT WHAT I WANT AND I WANT IT NOW AND WANT IT DONE MY WAY!!! Do I sound like an addict or what!?
I do take medication for depression & a mood stabilizer and a small dose of trazadone to help me sleep but I probably don't even need that now. The medicine does make me sleepy but then I have a kind of "restless" sleep, not a horrible night's sleep just that my body is undergoing something new and coming off of something it was used to for 2 years. Your doc sounRAB like she's going to prescribe some additional detox meRAB to help you go through the first day or two. I didn't need anything but the suboxone and I felt great the first two days. It was only days 3-7 that I had the headaches, nausea, etc. I never threw up but felt like I was going to but it wasn't severe at all.
I say go in with an open mind and if you're pretty sure you are going to start, make sure you go when you are in mild to moderate withdrawls. For me that was 24 hours from taking my last hydro. I think I took 50mg at 7am Friday and my induction was Saturday at 7:30am.
I'm really proud of you for asking for help, advice, and coming here. What we're all doing, whether it's contemplating stopping, detoxing cold turkey, using some meRAB to help, trying the suboxone route, any of it,it's all very hard and challenging. This will never be easy and I agree with the other posters that the physical part we can all get through, it's the mental, emotional and psychological part that is the hardest and lasts the longest. And, for me, coming to terms with "I am an ADDICT" once again is of huge importance. I think having 2+ years clean from 2005-2007 got me feeling lax and like, "maybe this was just a bad period where I misused some opiates". I'll have 2 surgeries within 3 months, just take the pain meRAB they give me, stop when the pain is gone and I'll be fine. I can do it, no problem. Boy, was I ever WRONG! I now realize that I can never get too confident with this disease. I will never beat it, I will always have it, but I can learn to manage it.
Best of luck, Philly. I'm anxious to hear how your appointment goes. Please feel free to write any time with any questions. I may not be able to answer them but I'm happy to share my personal experiences if they help at all.
Take good care,
kewood