toomuchtooyoung
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I met a guy about 3/4 years ago. We got talking and began to really like eachother. He lives in Manchester and I live in Leeds so it wasn't a good idea. Anyway, I was only young at the time - 14 and he made me feel special. He had an attitude and humor that really attracted me to him. Every time i spoke to him i got butterfly's, thought about him all the time, what it would be like if he was here etc and also got really jealous of other girls. Because he lived far away, we mostly talked online or on the phone. I could never have him for myself, anyway he's a bit of a player and a real lads lad. We didn't speak for a while because we both got into relationships but i thought about him from time to time. I then broke up with my boyfriend, and got into a different relationship while he remained in the same. When he broke up with his girlfriend we began talking again. He still gives me butterfly's, excites me and makes me feel special but the problem is i have a boyfriend who i care about a lot and its really effecting our relationship. My boyfriend and I had an awful argument and he ended it with me and i was in Manchester that night and stupidly fell for him, we ended up sleeping together and it was really emotional like he made it clear he cares about me. I then got back with boyfriend but never told him because i don't want to hurt him. I feel awful, but at the same time i don't because i have such a passion for this guy. He can be horrible and i still see no wrong, i hate it when we don't talk for days, its always at the back of my mind and i try to start conversation a lot but i don't want to seem annoying. Its awful i know but i can't help myself, its like we have this connection. Its a very odd situation, he tells me he wants to be with me when i move to university there and makes it obvious i am what he wants but at the same time i feel kind of played, its that chase that excites me and i just wan't to get him out of my head. Its eating away at me, i think about him everyday, when i wake up and go to sleep and i don't want to be doing this to my current partner. How can i get over him? I've tried not talking to him but i can't help myself, if i think about talking to him it eats away at me until i finally do, is this normal? I also wan't to look good him, i want to loose weight and seem attractive to him (he likes really skinny girls) where as my current boyfriend says i'm ridiculous for wanting to loose weight cause im perfect the way i am. Is it because you get bored if you have such a nice relationship and miss the excitement? I don't know, Its weird because in my last relationship i felt the same, i would drop anything for him and i got that butterfly feeling but i don't think he ever got that for me when he had a girlfriend. He's a few years older than me and i feel like he cares but i'm on a different level SOMEBODY PLEASE GIVE ME ADVICE!! IT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I fear that i'm with my current boyfriend so i'm not alone, which is wrong because i really care about him and feel in love with him but this old crush is somehow taking over.