need encouragement 2nd day off opiate

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hi there im a 25 yo mother of a beautiful daughter. im also an addict. i have legitimate pain- severe headache that has lasted 10 years with little relief. i've tried everything out there literally so i've been using opiates. didnt really have a problem til i met my boyfriend who is also an addict. then i would misuse my pills here and there since i then knew i could get high off them. i was able to cold turkey a low level of the opiates i was on, but still used every month or so. last summer i moved inwith him and i started using every day. whatever icould get. sometimes all i could get were 60mg morphines or i would use numerous 80's of oxy,which is my drug of choice. i had finally had it last thursday was really depressed and had no money or pills, so came to stay with my mom for a break. i knewi needed off these pills and didnt want to be around my bf for that. he is now really sick too and calling trying to get money for pills. yelling at me that im probably over here doing pills. i had a script for tramadol which ive been taking for the wd and its helping. i just know when i go home to mybf he'll still be using and that might make me fall back into it.
 
Hello

Welcome to the Board. This is a place of much hope and guidance when we find ourselves ready to truly remake our lives and find sobriety. Looks like your using and abusing has gotten out of control and it is without a doubt time to move on correcting this. To do this, we must surround ourselves with non-users, really change our lives.

This is what concerns me:

i just know when i go home to mybf he'll still be using and that might make me fall back into it​

Please do not fool yourself... we can not live with addicts and hope to get better ourselves. It is just not going to happen. while I read your worRAB that you have had enough, I also read your plans of going back to that little drug den knowing you will fall into the drugs again. If this does happen, the blame will be squarely on your own shoulders.

There are some choices to make here. Before you make them, you have to make some firm decisions and stick to them. What is most important? Returning to a relationship that centers on drugs or becoming again the person you once were? Addict girlfriend or responsible mom? Walking a deadend street or running as fast as you can to a road of respect for yourself as a woman and mother??

I am not sure where you stand? Are you sure? Take some time and honestly evaluate your life. If you are unhappy with it, then going back into the same situation and expecting a different result is nothing more than addictive thinking. Taking a stand and working to change things drastically is the only way out. NA is a good starting place. Listen to others who are fighting the same battle as you. Make connections that can support lifestyle changes. Many have gone before you that have found and maintained sobriety... let them lead you as you strive for it yourself.

Best wishes
reach
 
thanks so much for your reply. i completely agree and have actually talked with my bf who now wants to get sober too. we are now checking intosub drs, as he thinks that is his best option.
 
Hi

I think it would be wonderful if both of you can get clean. That would be ideal, wouldn't it? There is lots of hope and joy in the future if this can come to pass.

Sub is always an option. It can curb the cravings and just about eliminate the withdrawals. It also can provide time to get the counseling that is needed to help understand why the adiction has come to be. I am in no way against sub; just please go into it with wide eyes if this becomes your path. Sub contains an opiate.. buprephrene (SP?) as well as Naxolene which gives the ceiling effect. When the time comes to get off the sub, there is withdrawals as with any opiate. I think it is the exact right plan for some.

Whatever the choice in withdrawal, please make sure to include in the plan to find sobriety. It might be NA, AA, private counseling or a corabo of more than one thing. It is an absolute must to have aftercare. It is the aftercare that we learn and grow, when we heal ourselves as another poster( Icehouse) put so well.. "from the inside out."

I am wishing you the best and hope and pray that you will find the restored life you are seeking.

reach
 
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