Hi. I am disabled with several health issues. Been at the same doctors office for 15 + yrs. As far as I know I have never had an addiction problem for anything. A few months or so ago I noticed a real problem with my meds. I had been on vicodin, ativan and soma for Paniac/Anxiety and bad Fibromyalgia for many years @ high doses, as well as many other meds but those where the addictive ones I was on. I started running out of my ativan early and realized I must have been taking more then I should have and once before when I tried taking myself off I had a major seizure. When I realized I was taking too many I called my doctor who was out of town and wanted to go off the addicting meds but safely. I was told he was on vacation and had to see this new doctor there. When I went in she never listened to me yelled and screamed and cursed right up in my face pointing her finger at me for 20 min. talked on the phone very loudly to the pharmacy repeating my full name and birthdate at such levels where everyone could hear her. She was completely the most unprofessional doctor I ever meet and I have never heard one with such a cursing problem. She accused me of selling my drugs on a blackmarket several times which is not true I took them and said I did and offered whatever means neccessary to prove it but I never got a word in, it was so humiliating and embarrassing. She never gave me any advice nothing after she yelled she kicked me out of the office. I did try to get into a treatment center but they where so full it would take months to get in. I tried several times to call my doctor to discuss what happened. He never called me back. I had a bad time but got myself off all those meds except my blood pressure ones all on my own, have absolutely no desire to go back on them and am so proud of myself and then I get this letter saying I could no longer go to their office for medical care. Due to excessive overdosing of my meds they called it and they r gonna tell my insurance which is medicare so I may loose my soc. security. Now I am out of my blood pressure meds atenonol and lisnopril and I don't know where to go. I am so embarrassed and now tainted and labled as a bad person that I am not worth being treated for anything and should just be left to die. I mean I know that's not completely true and no I am not sucidal but I feel worthless and am scared to go to a doctor scared they won't take me for medical treatment anywhere and don't know what to do. I feel like somehow I did the wrong thing by admitting I saw a problem and trying to get help for it and am being punished. Any suggestions? Thnxs for taking the time to read!