Narcotics

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I have recently been shipped home from overseas due to a blast, and as a result of the blast broke my hand, lost a finger, had my hip/knee shifted right 4cm, and am having alot of emotional issues. My family came to visit me for a short time an I wasn't having to many drug issues (mainly because my son was here) now that they left I am slowly having issues with all the narcotics I am prescribed. percocet, morphine, and the neurotin feels good also. I am finding it very hard to let anyone know these issues and this is my first step. During my tour previous to the last, I suffered 6 other blast and have short term memory loss, really bad hedaches, and blured vision. The narcotics seem to make me feel energetic, and I haven't had a hedache in months. I would really just like some emotional support from some people so I can build the courage to tell someone. I see myself going down a wrong path and they dont even take the edge off my hand and leg, they just ease my emotions
 
I am so sorry for all that you have lost. I don't mean just physically. Do you have nerve damage in your hand and leg? It can be hard to quell nerve pain. For some people narcs can make them feel energetic. These people, I think, are prone to addictive behavior. Surely you are seeing a therapist? If not then you came to a good place here. If nothing else you can vent. Do you not have a friend or close relative that you can express your concerns to? I wonder if you were to stay physical, lift weights say, then your physical need for pain meRAB may go down. For the emotional you have to open up. I know how hard that can be. It involves trust issues for one. Are you able to trust someone? Write more...Sincerely, searchin
 
Wow, Your story just blew me away. I don't have the answer for you; I can only share my experience, strength, and hope. I am in no way the pain you are suffering. It is possible that you need stronger pain meRAB and then taper down when you are feeling better. You have developed dependence/addiction and only you know if you can handle the pain.

I have fibromyalgia and became dependent and then addicted to Percocet/oxycodone, like you, because it gave me energy and also euphoria. I used to say they "perc" me up. I was on them for about 6 1/2 years, and it took a lot of willingness to get off of them, which for me came from my higher power, which I choose to call God. I prayed for the willingness to be willing to go through withdrawals to get off of the pills. I was afraid of the fibromyalgia pain flares, but I knew I couldn't keep any in the house.

I began a taper the end of Sept 2010 and took my last 1/4 pill on 9/29. I used the Thomas Recipe which is similar to the detox plan at the top of this board. It was a rough few days, but nothing like going cold turkey. The worst part for me was after the withdrawals. I had no energy and just didn't feel like doing anything. I was restless and had the blahhs. I took L-tyrosene 1500 mg. and that helped a lot.

I have not had a pain flare since I got off the meRAB. I feel so much better now. I am no longer chained to the pills that I had to take every 5 hours or so. I know there is the potential that I will have pain flares this winter, but am only going to take Aleve. (I called my doctor's office and requested that they no longer prescribe any type of narcotics to me. So that cut off my source which was a huge step, but was very freeing for me.)

As a part of my recovery I go to AA, I am also a recovering alcoholic, I practice the 12 steps which have changed my life. So far, I don't feel the need to go to NA. Many alcoholics are also addicts and it's the same 12 steps. My life is so much better since I got clean and sober. I am the real me, not me on drugs. (sounRAB like a commercial) but it's true. My strength comes from my Higher Power. I couldn't quit on my own.

My hurable advice is to listen to your gut and talk to your doctors. You may need to have stronger narcotics for awhile, and then when you are in less pain come off of them.

As far as the psychological aspects that you are suffering, I would refer to the mental health section of these boarRAB under Post Traumatic Stress Disorder or Gulf war syndrome, and see a psychiatrist and a counselor. This ofcourse is my hurable opinion.

I wish you all the best that life has to offer, and am praying for you. I hope I didn't scare you off with the God stuff. This is MY story; I'm not saying you have to do what i did in order to recover. But it is working for me.
 
I really would like to thank both of you for your replies, they helped in more ways than you could imagine. To answer the question about nerves, I do have nerve pain in my hand only because my tendon, ligaments, and nerves were all torn apart, and for my leg not so much. I am seeing a therapist which was going well until this afternoon I found out I lost a close friend in the same place I was blown up, and that's really causing a mental breakdown. It was really hard because he was my soldier and he was also young(just turned 21). I have not started lifting yet but I do walk trails everyday, and that was another thing that caused emotional issues, because I am a very active person and lifting has always been a hobby. As for rosebuddy your story was very comforting and inspiring, its nice to know that people who have overcome are willing to share stories. I wouldn't like to start any other medication or stronger only because I see future risks. I do have frienRAB and family I could talk to but this is kind of a sore subject, because I don't want anyone to have more concerns than they already do. I would like to say again I really appreciate the posts, and this is a good place for me to start my recovery for seeking further medical assistance.
 
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